"Black Balloons" is a standalone single by Ellise.
Song Leakage[]
- October 13th, 2022 - A high quality snippet of the song is shared by Ellise on TikTok.[1]
Background[]
On October 13th, 2022, Ellise announced the song, with a snippet on TikTok, along with a presave link for the song.
On October 28th, 2022, the song was released along with a visualizer.
On December 30th, 2022, Ellise teased a possible music video for the song via her Instagram story.
Theme[]
i made a song about feeling disconnected from myself and reality
i wrote it the day before my birthday which is when i always get the most depressed lol
an evil bday party from hell taking place inside my brain
Ellise, via TikTok
I know a lot of people can relate to feeling kind of depressed and down right around the time of your birthday, I was definitely feeling the birthday blues, so it kind of all just meshed together perfectly.
Ellise, via ENVI
She almost cancelled the studio session the song was written in due to how low she felt, however chose to record the song instead, writing the entire song within an hour.
Everyone was so locked in on the same page, which is such a rare thing. And when it happens, it's like magic.
Ellise, via ENVI
Lyrics[]
[Verse 1]
Spent the day in my own broken head
Living for people who wish I was dead
I should get the fuck out of my room
Dig my own grave so my friends don't have to
[Pre-Chorus]
I'm barely breathing, suffering season
Or maybe it's me and
I'm at the pity party of my dreams
[Chorus]
Can't eat your cake if it's rotten
Don't drink the punch 'cos it's toxic
Everyone here is of my own delusion
I'm all alone blowing up black balloons
[Post-Chorus]
Ha-a-a-a, ha-a-ha-ha-a
I'm all a-
I'm all alone
I'm all alone blowing up (black balloons)
[Verse 2]
I'm not even gonna fight it
So sorry, but you're uninvited
It's me, myself and I like it
The sad bitch in me got a tight grip
Knee deep in the crazy
Got me gossiping with shadows
Someone should restrain me, I'll be happy in the madhouse
[Pre-Chorus]
I'm barely breathing, suffering season
Or maybe it's me and
I'm at the pity party of my dreams (Hahahaha)
[Chorus]
Can't eat your cake if it's rotten
Don't drink the punch 'cos it's toxic
Everyone here is of my own delusion
I'm all alone blowing up black balloons
Tables are set for disaster
Banner says: "you never mattered"
Everyone here is of my own delusion
I'm all alone blowing up black balloons
[Post-Chorus]
Ha-a-a-a, ha-a-ha-ha-a
I'm all a-
I'm all alone
I'm all alone blowing up (black balloons)
Trivia[]
- This song's presave link originally had the song's actual cover art when first revealed, but this was shortly swapped to another placeholder cover, and then later another placeholder cover art.
- This song was inspired by a scene from a horror movie with black balloons in a van (resulting in the song's title).
- Additionally, further inspiration came from "Pity Party" by Melanie Martinez.[2]
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