marginaliana | Entries tagged with critical role

Things:

--( Good Omens 2 spoilers )

--It also made me think about my feelings about Percy's appearance in campaign 3 of Critical Role, in that ( spoilers )

--Read Martha Wells' new book The Witch King and though I wanted to love it, unfortunately I thought it was merely fine.

--Having a lot of negative body image thoughts recently, do not want.

--Had a stress dream about having to research lavender-scented gravel for work.

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toft mentioned the McElroy podcast The Empty Bowl which is two men speaking very gently and softly as they review cereals, and it is extremely pleasant. What the fuck. <3

Things:

--Finished reading Dark Tide: The Great Boston Molasses Flood of 1919. This is really quite good. Has a lot of context about the political and social surroundings of the incident, both before and after: the US military-industrial complex in WWI, the Italian immigrant community in Boston, the US anarchist movement, the post-incident legal case, etc. Really fascinating. Sad, though - I didn't realize how many people died and how many were horribly injured, all down to war-related business taking incredible shortcuts with safety. Unsurprising, when you lay it all out, but still depressing.

--Learned the other day that the nickname for those capsule toy machine things is 'gacha' and not 'gotcha' as I had assumed just from hearing it.

--Today was a not great day at work and I'm sure glad I was on mute during the all-staff meeting because the first sentence out of the speaker's mouth made me say "eat shit."

--I have a lot of feelings about Ashton in last week's Critical Role and I want to write a thing but I haven't been in a running fandom in so long that I've forgotten what it's like to have your ficlets constantly jossed and now I feel paralyzed. Guess I should go back to writing rpf instead. :D

Very glad to have been warned (by Sam! wtf) that I'd want tissues for the final EXU: Calamity episode because holy fuck. So good, but I may be weeping for quite some time.

Dear Critter - hi, I love you! This show has been my lifeline during the pandemic and I have so many feelings. I've given you a blurt of prompts and thoughts below but honestly as long as you write something that makes you happy, I'm sure I will love it.

( General Stuff )

( Campaign One )

For C1, I'm only current up to the time skip, so please don't spoil me for anything major after that if you can manage it.

( Campaign Two )

unspoken (503 words) by marginaliana
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Critical Role (Web Series)
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Bell's Hells & Ashton Greymoore
Characters: Ashton Greymoore, Bell's Hells (Critical Role)
Additional Tags: Introspection
Summary:

Ashton doesn't like being lied to.

Things:

--A conversation with friends a few weeks ago reminded me that I do in fact own a light box, so I've been trying to use it in the mornings. Mixed success in remembering it exists before I've had tea, tbh, but I've managed a couple.

--( The Legend of Vox Machina feelings (first three episodes) )

--I'm so tired. So tired. I haven't even done anything except, you know, capitalism and living in a global pandemic in America, which I guess is reason enough, but fuck me I'm tired.

--I wrote some words on a fic today? Apparently a thing I'm able to do on occasion?

Dear Critter - hi, I love you! This show has been my lifeline during the pandemic and I have so many feelings. Below is kind of a wall of text covering those feelings because as a writer I often like to get info about people's preferences. But I promise that you can disregard all of this and write the story of your heart, and I will absolutely love it. (Also lots of this is in my signup already but there is a bit more as well.)

( General stuff )

( rpf )

( Campaign 2 )

( Campaign 1 )

So, that was kind of a lot, I know. But once again, feel free to ignore everything except the DNW and write something that moves you, and I will be so, so happy to receive it.

Things:

--My computer went away and was fixed and came back with a replaced hard drive, so I am now in the process of putting things back again. All my essentials were backed up but I've lost a pile of video and photos. Which is weirdly freeing. Like when you accidentally close all your browser tabs.

--Reading: Tuesday Mooney Talks to Ghosts by Kate Racculia. This was intensely On Brand for me, being full of treasure hunts and puzzles and goths and gays and people who do investigation and charitable prospect research. I enjoyed it very much. My only complaint would be that it was a little too much 'yo dawg i heard you like boston so i put a little boston in your boston.' And I live here, so that's saying something.

(Actually, I really did find it odd. Because I do live here and most of the locations and descriptions were familiar to me. But... it felt like too much scene setting. Is it just that it was so thoroughly specific that it felt patronizing, like no one would get the Boston ambiance unless it was punching them in the face? Is it that it felt name-drop-y more than actually descriptive? Or is it just that I'm not used to getting scene setting with places I actually know? I'm so bad at place descriptions - maybe it's weird actually having them take hold. Hmm. If anyone else has read it, I'd love to hear your take.)

--Still wearing a mask outside because I am pretty sure I'm gonna be That Person for a while, even though I'm fully vaxxed and MA has lifted the mask order. But frankly I don't trust other people on the street, both for covid and other gross reasons, so as long as I have an excuse to keep it on I'm going to keep it on. But I feel safe enough sitting on a lawn and eating food with friends that I do trust. I have seen a bunch of friends and made plans to see more and I'm so happy.

--Finished the Critical Role finale and cried for a while. I started watching it last spring as an 'it's a pandemic and I need something new' thing and then I was invested and now this campaign is over. I'm anxious about what they're going to do next, but whatever it is, I'm in.

Things:

--I watched a second pacifist playthrough of Undertale and god, that game is so good. I almost didn't want to see it played through again because of the meta level aspects of the game and the sense of permanence, but it was done by one of my favorite youtube channels and in the end I'm glad I did. The player clearly loves the game and he did it justice. Also, previously I'd watched both a pacifist run and then a genocide run, and even though that was months ago it was nice to have a pacifist run to leave with.

At some point this player is going to do Deltarune, and I'll be interested to see what he thinks of it. I haaaaated it.

--Seizure auras are getting more frequent and it's pissing me off. Nothing has advanced into a full seizure but there have been enough that I am getting very anxious about it. I have a neurology appointment in a few weeks and I'm going to bring it up then and tell the doc I'm ready to add on some new meds. TBH I should have done that back in January but I chalked it up to inauguration stress. (Don't be like me, kids!)

--The sleeves of my Fall Out Boy hoodie (now approaching its 18th year of existence) are really disintegrating now. One has a gigantic hole up the bottom of the forearm and the other is slit open from the wrist up to the elbow (I've knotted the wrist ends together so it functions more or less like a sleeve). The pockets are frayed and shedding little pills of fabric. I already sliced the wrist cuffs off a year or so ago. I know I could cut the sleeves off and have it be a short-sleeved hoodie and that probably wouldn't make any measurable difference, functionally, but somehow I just don't want to do it. Alternately, I could try to repair those tears, which I also don't want to do. I mean, it would take a tremendous effort, but that's not why I don't want to do it. I feel a weird fondness for all this hoodie's falling apart self.

I don't want to say it's lived a life. But it's lived my life, I guess. I've had this thing since I heard the band and fell in love with them. That was such a formative moment in my life and this hoodie's hung around since then just like the music has. I think I'm going to just keep it as it is until it's genuinely unwearable. And it's not there yet.

--I read some fic for The Untamed and liked it, oh nooooooo. Started with a rec of something in a fic genre I love (OC comes in and points out all the ridiculous BS in canon and proceeds to go fix it all in the most matter-of-fact way possible) and then looked at the author's other works and then looked at their bookmarks and fuuuuuuuu. I suspect I'm going to dip into this in the way I did with SGA: namely, not take in the canon at all and just enjoy the fic for fic reasons. That is okay.

--Current Critical Role series ended on a serious cliffhanger last week and I have been tense for days about the next episode (aired last night, but I haven't had a chance to watch yet). I don't usually get genuinely wrought about fiction and I don't know why this one has hit me so hard, but ughhhhhh, feelings.

Stuff:

--Poll results: the vast majority of you use the same pronunciation I do, draMAtis perSONae. A similar majority of you have only ever seen the words written down and so just went for what seemed right, which is also the way I did it.

You also correctly identified that Stephen Fry is wrong about the way he says it, even if you didn't know the way he says it. :D Well done, everybody.

(He says DRAmatis PERsonae.)

--Recently read a twitter thread in which the author asserted, "unlike irl, people online do not have an identity outside of their opinions." I... am baffled by this. What is an identity, then?

--At work we interviewed a guy for our open senior position and he seemed competent and we all went yes! and then he withdrew his application so it's back to square one. Honestly I don't think we need a new person but I've been overruled.

--I've been reading a book about Chernobyl and damn, it sure was Handled Badly. From every moment, really. Fascinating but depressing.

--I picked back up with watching the Vox Machina series of Critical Role. I'd kind of faded out of it after the Chroma Conclave arc, in part because things got aimless and in part because the party got intensely dither-y and I just could not deal. I have enough dither in my own life, thanks. But I ended up reading a summary of the really dither-y episode and moving on to the next, which seems to be better.

The Mighty Nein series (ongoing) is certainly good and I'm watching the episodes as they come out and feeling suspenseful, but I have to admit that I love Vox Machina more. The balance of fun/intense seems to fit me better. And also I like them more. That's not entirely surprising - since that series began when they were already a developed group, they'd had time to get a lot of the 'I'm an asshole' out of themselves. Whereas the Mighty Nein are still in the asshole stage of character development, I feel like. It makes sense, character-wise! But I don't find myself rooting for them in the same way, and I prefer characters I can root for.

Dear Critter – Hi, I love you already.

This is my first year participating because I have fallen in love with this fandom during the 'it's a perfect time to binge watch That Thing I've Been Hearing About' year of 2020. I've kind of been coming at the series from various points, so you can assume that I'm current on campaign 2 (detailed watch starting at episode 88) and through the Chroma Conclave arc in campaign 1. I might be finished with campaign 1 by Christmas but no guarantees, so I just wanted to give you a sense of where I'm at since I'm requesting things from all over the place.

I'm giving you a wall of text here just because I personally like to have prompts to work from, but don't by any means feel like you have to go with any of this. Write the story of your heart and I will love it, I promise.

( General likes and DNW )

( Yee Haw Game Ranch )

( Campaign 1 )

( Campaign 2 )

( RPF )

I'm not sure this is 100% in the spirit of Comfortember but hey, it's comfort!

Rescue (667 words) by marginaliana
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Critical Role (Web Series)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Percival "Percy" Fredrickstein Von Musel Klossowski de Rolo III & Keyleth
Characters: Percival "Percy" Fredrickstein Von Musel Klossowski de Rolo III, Keyleth (Critical Role)
Additional Tags: Canonical Temporary Character Death, Critical role episode 69
Summary:

Percy was dead, and there was Orthax.

Thoughts:

--Dang, taking Wednesdays off is such a lifesaver for me. I much prefer it to a long weekend. I've been doing every other Wednesday and taking that time to go to the bakery for breakfast sandwich and scone, then sitting in a park for a couple of hours listening to podcasts and watching the 5 million dog walkers that go by.

--Podcast wise, the new series of David Tennant's podcast has the potential to be better than the first. Not that I disliked it, but it felt very 'let me interview you about your life' in a way that I don't think brought a lot to the table (I hate standard interviews and have begun refusing to listen to them because they are so dull and repetitive). But the new one with Jim Parsons is really excellent and nicely meanders.

--Got a fic comment that says "this cleared my skin and watered my crops." <3 I love the corner of internet culture that I'm in.

--Finding it interesting to watch myself emotionally interact with the two different Critical Role campaigns. I'm not usually a fan of spoilers but I am sort of realizing that part of the reason I'm not so stressed by campaign 1 is that I know enough of the outcomes to not worry about my babies even though I am quite invested. Whereas campaign 2 is ongoing so I have no emotional safety net. I haven't watched an in progress narrative story in so long! I forgot what it's like!

--I bought a thing off etsy and failed to check my default mailing address and now it's been delivered to my office. *facepalm* One of my coworkers is going in once a week so I'm going to have to ask her to mail it to me.

--Still here.

Ah yes, angst.

It's all right (1000 words) by marginaliana
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Critical Role (Web Series)
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Caduceus Clay & Beauregard Lionett, Caduceus Clay/Fjord (Unrequited)
Characters: Caduceus Clay, Beauregard Lionett, The Mighty Nein
Additional Tags: Friendship, Unrequited Love, Angst, Episode: c02e105 Rumble at Rumblecusp, Rumblecusp is shit
Summary:

After the feast Caduceus made stomach-soothing tea over the fire while trying, unsuccessfully, not to hate Rumblecusp.

Welp, at least one episode 72 fic came out of my head already.

Later (1273 words) by marginaliana
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Critical Role (Web Series)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Percival "Percy" Fredrickstein Von Musel Klossowski de Rolo III/Vex'ahlia
Characters: Vex'ahlia (Critical Role), Percival "Percy" Fredrickstein Von Musel Klossowski de Rolo III
Additional Tags: Fluff, Getting Together, the inevitable post ep 72 fic
Summary:

"So we'll talk later," Percy says, and Vex would smack him for that if she wasn't so stunned by the lingering sweetness of his mouth on hers.

Things:

--I feel massively vindicated by your responses to my poll, as we can conclude that the Knights of the Round Table are indeed the most famous group of knights and Stephen Fry was full of shit when he said it was the Templars.

--I've started reading a book (!! miracle) about comics, and the author has some really interesting things to say that explain to me why I struggle with appreciating them. One comment was about media as interiority vs exteriority. Text is interior, coming to life inside the reader's head. Whereas something like television is exterior, where the life is in the actual experience of it. And I'm very much an interior sort of person (I don't watch much tv or film). Another thing was the idea of comics requiring a heightened level of literacy - textual, visual, and also the conventions of comics themselves. (Would like to shove this in the face of anyone moaning about kids reading comics.)

--Feeling very mournful the last few days. Not sure why, other than everything. I haven't slept well. All the fic I want to read is of tropes that are unhealthy (for me).

--Just hit Critical Role Vox Machina ep 72 and am full of feels about it. I kind of want to write fic before I start watching ep 73 but I don't quite know what is going to fall out of my head yet.

It's interesting being in a many-years-old fandom, knowing that an episode is going to be dramatic and speculating about it, and then it turns out both not as bad as one imagines and worse than one imagines.

Anyway, here is a fic with some feelings about Vox Machina episode 68. ( spoilers?? in case anyone is like me and coming to this fandom four years late. )

Various:

--I have this baseball cap that I made years ago - took a blank one and made it up to look like a Quidditch cap. It has a snitch on it and it says Seeker. I have worn it for years and I'm really proud of it.

Went out yesterday for a walk and when I picked it up to put it on, I was hit with a wave of serious ambivalence. It's Harry Potter, and I feel like that's kind of ruined. Do I just keep wearing it because it's a thing I made and Potter fandom was once a huge part of my life? Or is anything tied to HP tainted now?

Maybe I should buy another hat. Maybe I should make another hat.

--Really must finish my horror exchange fic today. I'm, like, 75% done and just need to get my shit together.

--Took today off just to have today off and slept in until 9:30. Considering my past three days of terrible/nonexistent sleep, it feels like a miracle.

--Still not really able to read anything. My focus is gone, and also my emotional ability to plow past conflict. Which, of course, is what good fiction is about! It's no good without conflict. But I just don't have it in me.

--I probably need some Critical Role DW icons. A creative task for 'at some point.'

--Still here.

Dang, episode 64 sure was something.

pencil sketch (500 words) by marginaliana
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Critical Role (Web Series)
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Percival "Percy" Fredrickstein Von Musel Klossowski de Rolo III & Vox Machina
Characters: Percival "Percy" Fredrickstein Von Musel Klossowski de Rolo III, Scanlan Shorthalt, Vox Machina
Additional Tags: The Feywild, spoilers up to mid-ep 64, Episode: c01e064 The Frigid Doom
Summary:

Before he slept, Percy sat on the edge of his bed and flipped through his sketchbook.

This is not the most ridiculous thing I've ever written, but it's up there.

Clarabelle's Comforting Conversations (400 words) by marginaliana
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Critical Role (Web Series), Narrative Telephone - Fandom
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Caduceus Clay & Clay Family
Characters: Clarabelle Clay, Colton Clay, Calliope Clay, Caduceus Clay, Clay Family (Critical Role)
Additional Tags: why do I do this to myself?, because Taliesin
Summary:

Clarabelle's calling is claiming her.

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Entries tagged with critical role

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Dear Critter letter

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Jester's cupcake

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