you know when your head aches, bad. Mine does. Ugh! The Tylenol cannot kick in fast enough. Why do I get so many? Maybe its from all the fumes from painting Charlie's room, which by the way is not really the color I wanted, but now have to deal with. So not worth it to get a headache over. I hate headaches.

It was a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad night...

That's what it was because at 9 pm after putting Charlie to bed an hour earlier, he woke in fits or rage. Then at 11 pm as I was putting myself to bed he awoke again screaming, this time I tried to let him cry it out, but he was mad and soon Evalie would wake up. That's when I knew it was going to be a terrible horrible no good very bad night. Thats what it was because all night long he never just slept he tossed and turned and moaned and complained. I said I needed sleep, I said if you don't go to sleep right now I am going to move to Moses Lake. He didn't even respond. At 3 am he pinched me, at 4 am he still wasn't asleep, who needs sleep? I checked the medicine box looking for Tylenol or Motrin or anything, I said if I don't get some medicine I am going to scream. No one even answered. At 5 am I got him to sleep but only for a few minutes. As he was yelling, he woke up Evalie. And as I was scolding him for waking up I stubbed me toe on her rocking horse. At 5:30 I gave him a Binky, no such luck with that. At 6:25 am I got him to sleep, no run for me today, and he stayed asleep till 7:30. At 8:00 Evalie woke up ready for the day. I had a terrible horrible no good very bad night. My mom says some nights are like that, especially for moms.

5 months and 1 tooth later...

Yesterday Charlie turned 5 months old. On the one hand I think how long these past 5 months have been. First living at Jim and Sue's place. The rough first six weeks, the move, the colic, the emotional roller-coaster, the bathroom remodel, cousin's ski camp, Evalie turning 3, constantly working on the house and yard. There's just a lot we are filling into 5 months. And then he did something that reminded me how new he still is, he starting sitting up. And I thought wow that's early and shortly after that he got his first tooth. I thought wow that's really early. Then I realized he is growing right in front of me and I have all these other distractions around keeping me from watching.



















Yesterday was a memorable day for me as I tried to do yard work and had pains in places that made me remember that not too long ago I was pushing a baby out and so I may still be a little bit sore. And maybe I should still give myself a break from time to time.
It also was a special night as Charlie was not going to sleep right away, so Jeff was holding him as we were watching Wipeout! And Jeff couldn't get enough of this little man. His face and mouth just draw you to them. You have to kiss him. So as Jeff was giving him so lovin' and Charlie was just soaking it all in, I thought to myself, this is how I want my family to be. And I am so grateful that decisions made long ago brought me a family I wanted all along and I didn't realize too late.
























Just as my friend Jade said he would, this little boy has taken my heart in a completely different way than Evalie did.