Amazing

It amazes me that my hair is still coming out. My dermatologist said it was nothing more he could do for me. I am to continue to get my cortisone shot every two weeks. They did run my blood work. He said it was all normal.

He closed out my appointment by saying that it is just stress. I needed to relax and let Da'Bear help out with the baby. Stress and lack of sleep is the reason why my hair is coming out so much.

It amazes me that trying to conceive for almost 5 years didn't cause me to be sooooo stressed that my hair would fall out.

It amazes me that losing a baby and my right tube didn't cause me to be soooooo stressed that my hair would fall out.

It amazes me that my father's death didn't cause me to be soooooo stressed that my hair would fall out.

It amazes me that the $15,000 IVF that failed right when my father died didn't cause me to be so stressed that my hair would fall out.

It amazes me that a little 13.4lb baby boy...that is my miracle...my life.... is causing me to be so stressed that my hair is coming out....(Go figure)

I am not stressed per say with him. I have been worried about him. He was colicky. But I wasn't convince that was the problem. So after many phone calls and going back and forth to the doctor, he is now on Zantac for acid reflux. He seems to be better....and eating better. I give him gas drops at least 3 times a day. That seems to help out a whole lot. I thought I had PPD....but my OB thinks otherwise. I know that I don't sleep much...so maybe that is it. I love caring for my little boy. Am I tired? Yes! Any new mother would be. This is my dream to be a mother....this is what I worked so hard for. I just can't believe that once my struggles with infertility was over....my stress would wear me out....The dermatologist seems to think that I need 30 minutes a day (outside of work) to be to myself. I am too controlling when it comes to Cameron. I guess I need to ease up and let others help. This is going to be very hard.

Long time...

So…….

What has been going on with us???? I haven’t had time to keep up with my blog. I would log on from time to time to read some of my favorite blogs. I would also post bullets….in hopes of posting….but hardly got the opportunity to log back on.

So much has happened. Cameron is getting bigger daily. A few weeks ago, I took Cameron to the doctor because his “Johnny bug” looked a little swollen. At first the on call nurse told me to treat it like a yeast infection with some hydrocortisone. They called the next morning for me to take him to see the pediatrician. Well….he didn’t have an infection. He just has a big “Johnny bug”. So embarrassed… At that time (around 13 weeks) he weighed 12lbs 6 oz.

Then Cameron started having crying outbursts…..uncontrollable outbursts. We tried just about everything…swing, bouncer, music….then I let the water run. That worked. We went through that a few nights. His pediatrician prescribed him some gas drops….saying that he was colicky. Those drops had my baby so drugged. It has about 5 % alcohol in every dose that I gave him. They told me to give it to him 4 times a day for 30 days. No way….I stopped it after the first day.

Cameron had started showing signs of not wanting to eat. He would go for a long period of time without eating. He usually would eat 4oz every 3 hours or so. He started eating 4oz every 5-6-7 hours. That was freaking me out. I know that at some point he will stretch his feeding but will consume more....but this wasn't happening....it was the total opposite. So once again I called his doctor. I find myself calling them at least once a week. I have been saying all along that Cameron has acid reflux. Well…this last time…they gave him some medicine for it. It seems to be working. He is eating better. We were so shocked that he had gained weight… I thought for sure he was smaller. Well, in less than two weeks he gained almost a pound. He weighed at 15 weeks 13lbs 4oz.

He is trying to hold his very large Dr. Brow.ns bottles. He is trying to pull himself up without support. He is sitting up really good. He hates tummy time…but tries to scoot. He loves it when I stand him up….he thinks he is trying to walk…super cute.

He is a feisty little baby. He is going to be in time-out at 6 months…LOL

Sometimes he hates to be held. He thinks he is grown.

So that’s it for now. Oh forgot to post about my hair. I had to cut about 2.5 inches off. My hair has been coming out like crazy. I have bald spots. I have to curl my hair to cover it up. Every time I wash my hair…I get a new bald spot. I have been going to the dermatologist for a month. They finally listened to me the other week. I think my thyroid is messed up. It is normal for hair loss after pregnancy…but mines is severe. I will have my blood work results on the 26th. I am hoping that it will show something is wrong with my hormones…if not…I guess I will have to buy a wig. I am just glad that I have Cameron in my life…so if I got to lose hair….than so be it.


Here is a picture




I think he looks so much like me. Here are some pictures of me when I was a baby...and some pictures of Cameron.

Here is a picture of us…he was 3 months 1 day old. He was super tired after Church.

It is hard to get a picture of him smiling...so here is one.