Baby Update

I went to the doctor yesterday for my regular check-up. I am nearing the half way point at 19 weeks. I am starting to feel much better about this baby, especially after yesterday! This is a very active baby, just like Maddie Gray which is a good thing while he/she is still "in there," but I'm not so sure that I can handle two riding the garage door up! I also heard a very good heart beat which is encouraging.

Dr. Gebhart told me the baby was doing well and so was I. He suggested I drop Chemistry, and part of me agrees with him, but I am nearly done with the class, so I just wonder if it would be worth it to withdraw and try again at a later date. The bad thing is, school isn't going to get any easier especially once Baby Custard arrives. I kind of feel like it's now or never with this class. I'm not doing great having failed test #1 and then getting a D on test #2. I hate I have set the bar so high for these next 2 tests, and I have to do really well on the final. We get no extra credit not even that great of a do over really. I have to do really well on the cumulative final and it will replace my lowest test grade! I was hoping to keep my 4.0 GPA dreams alive, but at this point I'm just hoping for a C!

I go back to see Dr. Gebhart on July 13 when I will be 23 weeks. It seems so odd. When I was pregnant with Maddie Gray, I thought I would be pregnant forever! I never thought September would get here, and now I feel as though time is moving faster than I am ready! November will be here before Josh and I know, and we will be welcoming Baby Davis #2 into the world and celebrating our first Thanksgiving as a family of 4! Too crazy to even think about really!

Any way, I am hoping to get started on the nursery soon, and I will post pictures after there's something to show!

Baby Custard

I have a friend who I have known since college, but wasn't truly close to by any stretch of the imagination. I found out after Josh and I lost the baby in December, she too had experienced the same loss as myself. She is now expecting again as well, and is due just a few weeks after me! It's funny how God works. Anyway, I asked her how she was feeling, and she seemed to have read my mind. She said she was ignoring her pregnancy until her big ultrasound June 23. I feel the same way. It is getting a little harder for me to ignore my growing belly, but I am in fact ignoring "you." I have completely thrown myself into summer school, which by the way, I will not be a chemist EVER during my lifetime, and am really in no way interested in talking about this baby. I feel sad I feel this way. I am so grateful and blessed to even be pregnant again and as far as I know, the baby is doing very well, but there's still that part of me that is afraid to bond with Baby Custard because I don't want to lose this baby. Maybe if I feel a little less attached...

I go for my big ultrasound June 13 when I will be 19 weeks and nearly half way done with this pregnancy. I think I will also feel better after seeing a growing healthy baby and hearing a beautiful healthy heartbeat. Maybe after that, I will bond more with baby custard. After my appointment, I will start to move the moving boxes out of Baby Custard's room and start to make it Baby Custard's room as opposed to what it is at the moment, a catch all.

It might be after my next appointment before I can update things again since Chem I is KILLING me! I wish I would have taken this before Human A & P. That came so much more easily to me. This I just don't get, and it's so frustrating for me. Say a prayer that I don't have a pregnant meltdown in class and that things go well at my next appointment!