OnCe

once sleeping was the best thing i do :)
i put my head in the pillow...n thats it....
i sleep....
once....she used to call me "sleeping beauty"
while we talking....she could look at me after 1min of silence....
knowing that i would be a sleep....
in her arms
once....we were kissing....n i slept off....n she just held me tight...
n we both slept.
once....she asked me...how easy for u to drop into sleep eh?...
knowing the answer...she just smiled...
once....she called me...n said,lets just be friend....
once....i cried like i did only once in my life..
when i lost my father....
i cried memories.....bitterness.....regrets....
once.......i went to bed....i stayed up till morning.....
n i couldnt get my self into sleeping....
but Now....
NOW i know...i know why i cant sleep like i used...
Now i know...i know why i have to close my eyes tight....
trying to stop the words....
trying to just "shut it down"
Now......i long for that feeling...
sleeping in her arms....
OnCE AgAin

.............

so much tireness...
my heart is in closed loop of mess
my mind flooding with thoughts ,words...taking me up and down
roller coasters driving me....
n i open my mouth....i scream
voiceless tones
iam heading to the nopoint place
no coming back roads
....
shaking up my head
shutting down my pc,n there
....i go.

Have I Told You

Have I ever told you
that if I sit really still and silent,
sometimes. I like to think
I can hear your heart beating
in time with mine?

Have I ever told you
that when I watch you speak to me
through lines and cords,
and bytes and ram,
I imagine
your voice,
whispering into my ear?

Have I ever told you
that I wait out each day
in anticipation,
wanting
only an hour or two,
just a second in space and time,
to feel close to you?

Have I ever told you
that sometimes,
I will reach out,
touching your name
on this cold screen before me,
wishing
I could reach in
and pull you to me?

Have I ever told you
that after the first time I heard
the sound of your voice,
thousands of miles away,
I sat up all night,
turning the conversation over and over
in my mind,
examining it,
like some newly discovered species of flower?

Have I ever told you
that I would give everything up,
just for one night
to be able to lay near you,
to feel your chest rise and fall
with each breath you take,
just to know that you are real?

Have I ever told you
that I dream of you often,
I dream of you reaching out
and touching my hand,
simply to let me know
that you are there,
and everything is okay?

Have I ever told you,
have I still yet to tell you . . .
that I ..................

MY FOREVA FAV SONG

this song is special dedication to someone,,,
who just brightened my life....
so warm feelings...that flew easily into me...
n went deep my soul
a perfect soul...that am greatful for...
a wonderful heart that makes my fingers helpless....
and my screen into a reflection of my thoughts ...of her
to you....remember me when u listen to this song please.
انا مستحيل هانساك في يوم
ولا بليل هايجني نوم
ولا يوم في بعدك ولا ليا بعدك
غيرك حبيب

حبي الوحيد وانت بعيدعهدك اصون
والشوق يزيد انا ليك لوحدك
عايشة لوعدك دايما قريب مني قريب

انا مستحيل انسى الي كان
انسى الهوى ولا الحنان
انت الي خلاى لوجودي معني
ولون سمايا ابعد بعيد وبعدك يطول
حستنى يوم حاصبر وانول
تبقى لي وحدى

تحضن هوايا دايما معايا
اوصفللك ايه وانت الحبيب
جوايا شوق احساس غريب
مالك كياني والشوق اناني
خلاني ليك انا بس ليك
احكيلك ايه لما تغيب

مهما تروح تفضل قريب
علشان ياروحي عايش في روحي
وانا روحي فيك

انا مستحيل حانساك الي كان
انسى الهوى ولا الحنان
انت الي خلاى لوجودي معني
ولون سمايا ابعد بعيد وبعدك يطول
حاستنى حاصبر وانول
تبقى لوحدي تحضن هوايا
دايما معايا

Right and Wrong Way...

True enough...there is a right way to love someone...
To hold them like it's your last breath...to kiss them and get lost in them...
To touch them and wish you could simply melt into them...
To breath what ever they exhale and inhale the soul of the one you love...

To cherish the moments...to enhance the moments to come...and be thankful for the moments your having at the moment...

There is a wrong way .....to love someone too...
To abuse the privilage of being in the life of something so devine....
To leave it behind...for someone else to find....
To extract all they have given you and leave them in the mist of what is left of you...

But when you are both .... giving each other all there is of you...
Nothing can define you...no one can break the bond with the two...
There is nothing but love..love..love....

If you let it be true...for you....and true to you...and true to them....

Keep the love slim...don't let it go....if you got one that loves you so....don't ever let go.....whether your friends and family like it ...love it...or hate it...you are the one that has to sleep with what you have done....
so...

Follow your heart.....right or wrong...depends on what you feel is strong inside your mind...soul..and body.....

Growing Through Love

love is not promised to us.....
love is a gift.....a choice given to us through a Higher power.......
love can blind you....love can make you open your eyes.......
love is a rebirth of our souls.....
love can sometimes make us feel like we should have never been born......
love is something so powerful it can take us out of our essence and make us do things that we would never have done before......
love can break us and make us wish to never feel this way again.....
then love hits again and makes us cherish every touch from love's hands......
love can leave you lonely and make a lonely person feel like they belong......
love has different motivations...from the little baby you might hold....
to the women that you sleep with every night for 40 years......
love can be a simple smile from across the street....
or love can be that shoulder you weep on.....
love is something that is a blessing to recieve and a curse to let go of.....
I have felt love before....I feel it everyday ......from the people that I work for to the people that have came in my life for a reason.....
but for some REASON....I have never had a love that I can say is all mine......
maybe because I am not ready for love.....or maybe because it is right under my nose....
any way I look at it....love is understanding that you may not win everytime you play a match with love.....but love does conquer all......
LOVE

Trying To Escape

im trying to escape
my mind is racing
my heartbeat getting faster every second
but my body is stuck in a trance
im trying to move
i feel as if my mind is paralyzed
the wheels have stop turning
im suffocating
i can see
i can hear
but
i can't move
there is evil all around me
im being tortured
im being overpowered
every decision i make is against my will
i try every second to wake up
i try to move but i can't
all i can do is watch while
my body is being controlled by some
unexplained cause
i try to scream for help
but no word escapes from my my mouth
all i can do
is just be there and feel the pain
see the dark walls hover above me
im crying frantically
but the pain im enduring wont stop
by know i realize this is my life
i cannot wake up when i want
this is my future
hurt pain and deception
i cannot escape
no matter how much i cry
no matter how much i pray

Love is A bitch

What is Love? And why does everyone eventually end up in pain as a result of falling for another?
You know what I say? Love is a bitch. A bitch that wants to go around and screw everyone over.
One day you could feel something for that special someone…
That butterfly feeling you get from that one being next to you
That nervousness about what steps to take
That “high” you get from a kiss or hug
That feeling no one can explain when you wake up in the morning and see the sun shining on the face of the one your heart belongs to
And then BAM! All of a sudden here comes the drama then all that’s left is you
You being alone and dying for that touch of that one and only
All of the insecurities then come….
“What if this leads to me being hurt again”?
“How do I learn to trust another”?
How do you know who to trust with your heart? And when, if ever is it time to start over?
All of these questions run through the complicated mind of mine..When will it ever end?
Life is full of nothing but Love and Pain
You just have to strap on your gear and be a soldier..
Take chances and be prepared…. Sighs

Pleasing You

I think of the times I was there. There to put that perfect smile on your face.
There to always hold you, forever keeping you secure in my embrace.
Loving and satisfying you like no one else can do. Energy flowing between me and you,
your lips, sending chills along my spine, Mine, whispering in your ear.
Those three words “I love You” soft but clear. My fingers and hands running down your back while you travel deeper sending me into another world. My eyes slowly close but when I open them I stare into your beautiful eyes, looking so true, could never tell a lie.
Your body, can’t begin to explain how attractive you are, how you leave me weak
when you hit those spots you know so well you leave me feeling fragile and unable to speak. When I’m in control I want do to nothing but please you. Leaving trails of kisses from head to toe feeling you cringe with every kiss sending deep sensation through your body. I feel your “love” approaching with every pulse. Your heart begins to race and drastically increases in pace. In the end you become weak and exhausted wanting to do nothing but be held again by my warm and comforting body. I want to love you forever, with me…hurt and pain, you won’t suffer again, ever.

Invisible

Here i stand in the shadows never known,
forever destined to be alone,
all i can do is wait for that day,
to say what it is i have to say.
there is so much anxiety and fear,
just wanting to hold u near,
how could you now see?
what you are doing to me.
i pray you were for me,
maybe then our love could be,
one day i hope to hold your hand
if you could only understand,
i am always thinking of you constantly
but i want to know honestly,
can you open your eyes, your ears, your heart
then maybe you could tell me
even if you read this you still won't see
how much you truly mean to me."

Circus

Im a prisioner breaking away from myself
Im a listener of things Im not supossed to hear
Whats the reason you are knocking locked doors
on this?
The other side of the wall nobodys got the keys.

My confusion is so real, an arrow going nowhere
Someone inside is trying to turn me against myself
Im falling down cutting the air with my skin,
Im trying to find myself,
I dont know where else to search.

My worlds are gonna crash
My anxiety is driving me wild
Breaking the mirrors I wont stop the past
Who am I going to lie?

This is the circus of the explicit
Just trust what you see
My illusion is nude, Im exposed to you
I cant hide the chains inside of me.

Everyday I gotta die
Get my crown, turnabout
Split the floor, get my eyes
Fit into me, drink the sun
Im getting clown, Im overdrive
Im nuts about you, Im my lie
Im a slave of your desire
Who is the puppeteer of my life?

My eyes, starting to bleed
The clearness hurts me when its reson what should
dream.
I cannot feel free, I cant hide what you see:
My soul is outta my body, its place is filled with tears.

Blanks

What i feel right now is like when the house you
lived in your entire life;; through all the memories, good and bad ;; and the
dream`s that it represents burn`s down in a fire....and nothing
is left. ii feel like i lost it all.

Why is it so hard to leave love alone

when you know it's bad for you......
but you love the rush of the argument....and the make up sex....
and you should leave......but you stay....cuz "we can make it"
and your dreams become lost in theirs

losing yourself in your significant other.....
these are random thoughts on love...it's just been heavy on my brain

sometimes i wish i'd never found love because it's so great and wonderful and hard and angry and happy and brilliant and stupid all at the same time.....it's very hard for one heart and mind to contain

i've come to the random conclusion that love is a drug...

-sighs-

why is it so hard sometimes.....like....that feeling when there's nothing apparently wrong.....yet you just pray you don't get hurt....

i love love...but i hate it too

Second Chance

second chance

i'm starting to feel a warmth
that i've long extinguished
feelings placed under lock and key
lost in the pain and agony
of relationships lost
tossed into the years of yesterday
desires i've no longer desire
the lies i refuse to hear
masquerading bright faces
of a unsatisfied frown
the consideration of another
that is just using precious space
but now the warmth is seeping
deep within my darkened spaces
igniting lost fires
igniting deeply within me
creating a bright light
that has been brought upon me
smiles without effort
tingles of sweet desire
that have me delightfully thinking
a future of a peaceful union
that once existed
wow the feeling of happiness
with yet a second chance

thought$

my head is sppining around...
the vision isnt that clear anymore.....i try to open up my eyes
my fingers....typing...but then its retyping...
i dont know what should i do....
i go bk again to the search page...i try to make sure my information is right...
i take a sip of my coffee.....its finished already n wasnt paying attention....
i feel so tired n my head is going heavvvvy....
i feel like falling ddown to my desk....
new thought came to my mind....
like i always end up thinking of u....
i wish u were near,,,,so near...at least when my head falls down...it would be on ur shoulders...
how many times i was thinking about that.....alot...
i cant even be sure....
many things....words....ideas...tables,clients....are bubbling on my head
the vision still not clear....
i love rain...
i think if u were with the right person...rain would the journey of a lifetime...
do i have to get wet....we dont have to..
i want to feel every drop going down to my face...
i want to hold your hand...n force u out to rain...
play around u...
push out....
while we both hiding from it ....
it could be a tree....n i would push u out...
i know am senseless when it comes to playing...
n childish...
would u catch a flu?
....i think iam getting a flu...
must be from the rain we've been under :D
i miss u

NEVER LIE TO A WOMAN

....i loveeeeee this story.....
so if u were thinking of lying to your gf...DONT hehehe
........................................................
A man called home to his wife and said, "Honey I have been asked to go fishing up in Canada with my boss & several of his Friends.
We'll be gone for a week. This is a good opportunity for me to get that Promotion I'v been wanting, so could you please pack enough Clothes for a week and set out my rod and fishing box, we're Leaving From the office & I will swing by the house to pick my things up" " Oh! Please pack my new blue silk pajamas."
The wife thinks this sounds a bit fishy but being the good wife she is, did exactly what her husband asked.
The following Weekend he came home a little tired but otherwise looking good.
The wife welcomed him home and asked if he caught many fish?

He said, "Yes! Lots of Salmon, some Bluegill, and a few Swordfish. But why didn't you pack my new blue silk pajamas like I asked you to Do?"

You'll love the answer...
The wife replied, "I did. They're in your fishing box....."

thoughts1

حبيبتي..لا أعرف اي الطرق أسلك..اكتب اليك كثيرا ثم أترك أحرفي تتبعثر في ذلك الأثيربيننا..ربما تعبر اليك من خلال لحظه أمرفيها
ببالك..هل أمر؟..ليتيني!! أحيانا أتسأل ماذا أفعل لو تقابلنا هل يكون حبنا..سجين السطور فإن اطلق السراح تواري في الصمت
هل ستختفي الكلمات ؟هل ستبدأ ؟هل حين تدخلين عالمي الخالي هل ستحبيه سترفضيه..؟هل سأكون انا هو انا ام بعضا من حلما عشناه سويا في حاجز شاشه...أحيانا اسرح في كل التفاصيل..هل سأدنو نحوك أم سأخاف ان استبعد لحد..ام أترك لك تحديد مسارات المشاعر بيننا.
..........
it seems that i this idea wont leave my mind...i keep on shaking my head,maybe that it would go away....
everytime i feel tire,sad n exhausted,,,,u come to my mind...
and i just put my head on ur shoulders....along with all my burdens...
i free my mind....n my heart n i rest....
in your arms.....
.........
my last day in work today....my scedual would be even more busier....
the family,the house,helping out preparing for the big day...
the festival....
al3eed
ill try to put my mind into my head n concentrate on them...
........
i wonder...who would remember me...who would think of me...
today my ex T sent me like 7emails...a habit she used to do...sending me funny emails n stuff....forwarding it .....thinking that this is her way to keep intouch with me...n not let the last string between us cut....
id still not reply...
who will ring me....i smile...i do already know..
but would she do that?
........
yesterday i was in a meeting...with my laptop there....
n i took a fast look at my pc...she was on...
i couldnt say hello...
after the meeting done...
a virus got into my computer...
n it crashed down...
wat a luck huh.... :)
.......
can she read between the lines? :)

There are teachers, and then there are Educators

i read these story somewhere...i think its worth sharing..
........
According to a news report, a certain school in Garden City, MI was
recently faced with a unique problem.
A number of 12-year-old girls were beginning to use lipstick and would
put it on in the washroom.That was fine, but after they put on their
lipstick they would press their lips to the mirror leaving dozens of
little lip prints.

Every night, the maintenance man would remove them and the next day the
girls would put them back.

Finally the principal decided that something had to be done. He called
all the girls to the washroom and met them there with the maintenance
man.

He explained that all these lip prints were causing a major problem for
the custodian who had to clean the mirrors every night. To demonstrate
how difficult it had been to clean the mirrors, he asked the
maintenance man to show the girls how much effort was required.

He took out a long-handled squeegee, dipped it in the toilet, and
cleaned the mirror with it.

Since then, there have been no lip prints on the mirror.
..........
huh what u think....i was right wasnt i? :)

thoughts

*today my whole work was writing down and printing out some application forms for newly working ppl on the company...
god it was boring....
typing it....
but printing it out ....n i was using the excel. was the most tiring thing ive ever done on the computer....god i hate it,,,
i was formatting it....along with the logo...over n over...
*wonder what is she doing now?
is she a sleep?today one of my colleagues was talking about the drawing programms...i rem her....
*my Ex....the girl who actually loved me to death one day...n who actually got nill for me now(thats a talent only me can have....converting ppl):)
she emailed me today"sorry my gf was near me couldnt reply when we online on the same time..how are u?,tc"
i smiled....was bad idea saying hi to u anyway....
i wont write her back....
T is the only gal who can still hurt me wheneva she suddenly appears in my life...
*today me n office mates we were actually laughing n making jokes...yeah...i dont do that unless i started to get used to the invironment....then iam...
good.

To You

i do what i used to..everytime i come online,i open your page...
i smile again to my self,i always assumed that ur page gets me luck
everytime i want to force my self into my cell company internt .....
i type ur page's name on,,n u know when i dont open it i dont get on,when i close it i get dcc :)
iam not hallucinating.....it happens
i love to read the hidden meanings inside ur words,i feel joyfull when i discover something in there....
it cheers me up,when i feel sad.
its like a trap i cant get my self out of.....a trap i enjoy....
when u feeling blue,feeling down.....i can see through ur lines...its no talent no,its the way ur write down ur feelings....
it brings me lots of memories....
of last year...as i rem ,winter time...
i used to stay up till 6am...
:)
yeah.....
can u guess i finshed my work n am just reading on ur last post right now? :)
yes iam.....
lol
did i tell u that i think alot about u?.....its obvious though....
i rem one of the pics i used to have for u,ur hair....
the colour of ur hair,it was glittering....makes me want to run my fingers through it...
:)
i dont know what am writing now....its only thoughts coming randomlly to my mind now...
i should get back to work...
write to u later :D
SaLaM

Promises

this is a poem i wrote to my ex....
i read it...n it makes me feel....
sorry for my self,and yet...feels good...
i am not blind no more.....neither inlove
as i said...love could be a merror...we reflect our inside hopes on it..to see whats not there...

..............
To my love
I want to be with you forever,
I won't ever do you wrong,
If only I could explain it to you,
I'd write you a love song.

you're the dream I see,
Every night when I'm asleep,
You're the best thing ever,
You're the one I want to keep.

You're like the oxygen in the air,
You keep me breathing each day,
Every time you say I love you,
It takes my breath away.

I'm happy when I wake up,
I'm happy when I go to bed,
I'm happy knowing I have you,
I've been happy since the day we met.

Your the strength in my heart,
The pieces, the parts, love's not hard,
it's keeps me moving, instead of fallin' apart,
the love I've been lookin' for, from the very start,
its you, you're the one who deserves my heart.

I want to show you this ,
If there is a way I can,
I will do all I can do,
To show you exactly where I stand.

I believe we can make it through anything,
We can be together this whole life long,
We can make it through all the bad times ,
Because the feelings we have are very strong.

I want to hold you in my arms,
For more than ever and a day,
I want to explain to you how much I love you,
If I knew I wouldn't run out of words to say.

this is the future I want,
Holding you high up in the air,
Knowing you are all mine,
Showing you I'm always there,
Being myself all the time,
Running my fingers through your hair,
Bey I want to be with you forever,
I hope you can see that I really care.

I'm here for you love,
Please see that it's true,
You are my whole life,
My whole heart, and I love you.

This is to you my sweet love,
I can't see us ever falling apart,
I want to be with you always,
I Love You With All of My Heart!!

How Weird....

i was always attached to the internet world...the virtual world of words n smileys....:)
iam smiling to my self now...never think i would feel that way about it...
the blog world......
when i 1st entered it.....was coz only a dear person to me opened her own page....she was like goddes of words.....
n she is still...couldnt resist not to read for her...as i peromised her no matter wat will happen ill always ...always read ur posts.....n i kept it by the way.
so i had my own page...didnt write on it....untill then i read a post about internet relations....
i since i had one of my great relations through it...i went there n defended my view point...
plus the writer were real good....n somehow she agreed on that
so i swimmed with flow...actually i stopped swimming n just went off with it........
n bit by bit...i saw it
after a while....ppl start to shoot each other...(if they had guns imagine!)lol
words...sharp....
many bad situations......untrusted ppl.....
n someone i knew got hurt,coz he trusted someone there...
untill today....
i actually read a post...wow
someone ws really "byrda7"
lol
dy farashit elmlaya.....
:)
anyway...why would we do that....we could have it ...clean,n beautiful....if we just tried not smugle it.....n act honest.....
be ppl as i always say...will neva change......
i wish if just not do that......
i know it will never happen....
now i know...i shouldnt spend alot of time on it...its not the real world...though we managed to somehow change it into a grey place where there is no colours!
internet world....what a world!

OVER FOR GOOD

Is it ever easy to do?!

NOPE

but we all must learn and know when its time to say fukk it and just let go... No use of holdin on to sumthin that was never really urs to hold on to in the beginnin right.

I did my best by not to lettin my feelins n emotions obstruct my view from lettin me see wut was really gud for me n wut was not!

Didn't know it wuld be so hard to see wut was really for me n wut was not, i guess cuz I wanted somethin so bad dat never was for me.

I was always puttin myself out on da line showin u my feelinz, tellin u how I felt, tellin u how much I loved u n how much I really wanted to be with u

I n neva had any of dat returned to me, yea u said it back, but deep down I never really felt it; in other wordz I was alwayz makin "an ass outta myself" Guess u didn’t care b/c u saw I wuld always be dere and thought u had me right where u wanted me.

It was almost like I was da Yo-Yo and u were da hand pullin da string, throwin me and pullin back when u wanted me.

At times I felt like jus throwin in the towel n givin completely up, but I thought if I do does dat really make me a strong person? I wondered how much longer I could hold on and do da whole "benefit of the doubt" thing. I felt i knew wut I should have done n I was just puttin it off hoping it would get better, hoping u wuld realize I was in ur corner, hoping u wuld finally see dat u were who I wanted and wanted to make happy.

But I want to THANK YOU for making it easier for me to let YOU go and try tomove on.“So when u start to missin me, remember u let me go and some one else will find me and know jus how to appreciate the things you took for granted”.

Someday

Someday
you’ll gonna realize
One day you’ll see through my eyes
But then i wont even be there
I’ll be happy somewhere
Even if i cared
I know You don’t really see my worth
You .............

Tonight I can write the saddest lines
. Write, for example,
"I loved her,
and sometimes she loved me too.
Through nights like this one
I held her in my arms.
I kissed her again...
and sometimes she kissed me too

tonight with a heavy heart
i write.....with a trembling fingers i type....
i tried for her,
and sometimes she tried for me too
through nights like this one
i imagine her again...

tonight with a non droping tear
i write.....with a shady view....
i think of her.....
would she think of me too?
through a night like this one...
i would let go......
hoping that she would never look back too

Thoughts

You...Is it just me?
Am I lost without it?
Could it be you?
Are you lost without me?
I'm breathing,so it hasn't defeated me...
But it feels like it's taken over me...
Headaches...Clueless...Random thoughts...
Where are you?What are you doing?
Do you think of me?Morning...Noon...Or Night...
Can you see me?Like I see you...
I touch my heart to see if it still beats the same...
I close my eyes to see if the image is the same...
It's gotta be something...I go through the questions in my mind...
What...Where...Why...When...and How...
it seems nowadays you come and go...Stay awhile...
Are you scared of me, like I'm scared of you sometimes?
Sometimes you come when I least expect you to...
Then, you sometimes go away when I least expect you to...
So I'm speaking to...You...
Have I really experienced you or have I only came close?

Clarifying a statement

The obvious is known
And yet I continue to be blind
Searching for thoughts that might have reason
Still clinging on
I can still feel you in my gut
Not wanting you there
I can still see you in my mind
Let me clarify
It’s an option that I am constantly debating
Blind to the fact that my debate is no longer questioned
But still searching for reasons unknown

But I can no longer have that as an option
My mind becomes lost
Trying to sort through memories
Trying to find reasons why
I wish I could clarify myself
I try to clarify the obvious
Clarifying why when I don’t even have a reason
No longer in denial
I see the obvious for now.

Love Is A matter Of Distance

Love is a matter of difference
Between you and me Love is a matter of distance
That you are too far away
Love is a matter of growing
And knowing true feelings
Love is a matter of showing
That you are too far away

When my heart is open
My mind is opening to find
I can't let you stay
The love is a matter of distance
You are too far away

Love is a matter of input
Outlook, deep inside
Love is to know you're on my side
That you are so far away

What Will Happen?

What will happen?
If women would been able to marry each other.
If men were able to get pregnant and give birth.
If you were the queen of your country.
If you had the ability to cure people.
If the world was only your family.
If there was nothing such as white or black, beautiful or ugly, fat or thin, rich or poor.
If we didn’t have to eat to live.
If there was no end of living on earth.
If there was no religions.
If we were able to live alone forever.
If there were aliens, n guess what they eat flesh, lol.
If u were able to charm others, with a look.
If there was no water oxygen or food on earth.
If the world believed that, you are god??????????
When I’m dying.
If some one soooo dear died infornt of ur eyes, n there was absolutely nothing to do
If you could control others memory dreams and desires, lol.
If you were an ant in a world of dinosaurs, lol.

Random Thoughts

Life is full of surprises
you'll never know what comes up next....
Things could come and things could go....
Sometimes its good and sometimes its bad...
Something did come up and it was good...
But not realizing that good
could ruin something that has been good to bad...
Its juz the matter of how to hadle things
and how strong you could fight for what is really matter..
Temptation is all around you...
Sometimes its hard to avoid them...
But hold back and sit for awhile
before you proceed your procedures.
Never ruin something that you think is good.
You might not find it again
or it would be hard to find.
Life is full of surprises
so be careful before you make a move.

SHE

Before when I think about love I always thought of it as something that should be perfect...happy...full of laughter, no fights... but that's just in fairy tales or maybe in the movies. Now that I met my partner I realized that love is beautiful but you'll have to work on it...

Amazing, never thought that I can love someone as much as I love her....so much that everytime I think of how much I love her it always bring tears to my eyes. Thoughts of losing her (just the thought of it) makes me cry. I'm always thankful to GOD for each day that I have with her.Really, Corny but I fear the day that all these will end.

I can no longer imagine my life without her. She and only she can complete me. Exagerated? Nah, that's what I truly feel. With her I have learned how it is to love unconditionally and without any expectations. I have learned to love not only the good things but also the bads...her moods her love her jealousy....her anger...her LOVE....her passion....her tears....love HER completely....

I have learned how to deny myself and just be giving, loving, undestanding and patient. I have learned how to put her needs before mine. Her happiness is my main and only concern. I have learned how to humble myself and never to let pride get in the way. Forgiving is never hard. Loving is as easy as breathing.

No matter how rough the ride gets, I will never let go...as long as she wants me to stay I'll always be here no matter what. Pains and heartaches will never compare to the joy and love that I have in my heart right now.
She's what my life is all about. She is my reason for everything. No one has ever mattered this much to me. I will give up anything for her. My dreams...my future...I'd take a bullet for her anytime,anywhere....

My heart couldn't ask for more because she's everything...everything that I ever wanted plus more...

I LOVE YOU....n when i met u....i found my Lost Love...i found U....

Yours Forever.......

LOVE ME ....Forever

I've known you for only
a short period of time,
but I feel as if
I've known you forever.
I tremble with joy
at your every touch.
The feel of your hand
taking mine - I want you to hold it forever.
I glow with happiness
every time you're near.
I want you near me now,
I want to be with you forever.
My knees grow weak
in your loving arms.
I want to stay there,
I want you to hold me forever.
My body melts
with every kiss you give.
Just the thought
of your lips on mine -
I want you to kiss me forever.
My heart jumps
to know how much you care.
Knowing that
it is so much more -
I want you to love me forever

Super Woman....

Super Woman
Who ls She......... ummmmm
She is a Woman that digs deep inside,and let go of her pride.
A Woman that don't mind bending over backwards,
just so she can move faster.
A Woman that seem to be mean,
but has everything going on in between.
She is the type that mends a broken heart,
and everything torn apart.
A True Woman not a Man!
who loves to be loved,
and don't mind lending a head.
A believer and a role model!
But even Super Woman needs someone to follow.
Doesn't all of this seem to be true?
But what if she fails, what is she gonna do?
Even Super Woman will break a rule or two,
by not following directions and getting stubburn too.
But inside she can be so mean,
she still shows love on top of everything.
All I am Saying! Everyone makes mistakes over and over.
But it takes a Super Woman to look inside herself! And know:
That not everything can be fixed. Not every heart can be healed.

Just One Moment

Even if its just for one moment
I'll Embrace U within my Arms
When it gets cold,
I'll be there to keep U Warm
Even if its just for one moment
I'll Breathe Life into U
Resurrect U, show U there's still Hope for Us

Even if its just for one moment
I'll Touch U, Kiss U, Love U
Just whisper sweet nothings into ur earz
Take U away, to anywhere

Even if its just for one moment
Make U forget, take this Chance
To shower U in a world full of Romance
Hold U even when the Sun Sets
Even if its just for one moment
In this moment allow us to lose Ourselves

Even if its just for one moment
I'll trade it all, bring U out of this Loneliness
Surround U with Happiness,

even if its just for One Moment...
I Promise You I'll Treasure this Moment...

Would You Die For The One You Love

i was listening to this song......old but god soooo romantic n emotional...
n then it stopped me....
n i remembered a Question my ex used to ask...would u take a bullet for me ?
i could not answer that.......coz i couldnt imagine it!
dont know why but couldnt ....but u know what....i wont stand n let something wrong happen to my loved one....NOWAY
i wouldnt think wat it will take me....i wont let it happen NO MATTER WHAT.....
so wonder if that answers the Q.... :)
so let me put the lyrics n hope u guys enjoy the song...i love it
n i dedicate it to someone so special to me....
HERO BY ENRIQUE IGLASIAS
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Would you dance if I asked you to dance?
Would you run and never look back
Would you cry if you saw me crying
Would you save my soul tonight?

Would you tremble if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh oh please tell me these
Now would you die for the one you love?
Hold me in your arms tonight?

I can be you hero baby
I can kiss away the pain
I will stand by you forever
You can take my breath away

Would you swear that you'll always be mine?
Would you lie would you run away
Am I in to deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care you're here tonight

I just want to hold you
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
Well I don't care you're here tonight

You can take my breath away
I can be your hero

The Truth

The truth is a funny thing.
I have always spent my life trying to find the truth in everything ,but it occurred to me that the only thing I need to know for certain is that
Shit happens
My mind has been constipated for many years trying to figure out why life throws you so many question marks.
I have been trying to answer all of life's mysteries when all a person really needs to know is that there will always be things that will be unknown because the answer is not meant to be known. The more you try to find answers to the question
"why is life so hard?"
the harder it gets.
Life is meant to be lived, not questioned,

I wish upon a star
that no matter how far
apart we are
you will find me
and you will see
How perfect are we
I wish that if for some reason
my wishes dont come true
That another person out there
is wishing for me..
hopefully that person is
.......................... you.

LoneStar

Lonestar where are you out tonight?
This feeling I'm trying to fight
It's dark and I think
that I would give anything
For you to shine down on me
How far you are
I just don't know
The distance I'm willing to go
I pick up a stone
that I cast to the sky
Hoping for some kind of sign

Dont Pick The Scab

have you ever slipped back in time
and lost yourself in the past?
have you ever lost grasp on what if
and sunken into the best of what was?
it's a dangerous activity,
you know reading accounts of your years gone by
remembering what made your heart beat
and what made it stop dead.
because words are a funny thing
in that your own are most powerful
for they know your weak spots
and even if erased, forever stay in thought.
so next time you think about falling back
and reviving a dusty journal
please remember
nostalgia is hazardous
and sometimes wounds only heal once
so don't pick the scab.

Friendship's International Day

i was sitting there thinking n suddenely it hits me...
its the friendship day....
so i wanna say few words.......to all my bloggers friends....
i have known u only with ur words,thoughts,touches.......
but i feel ive known u for real....n for that am greatful....for the day ive opened on my page .....
to KASBER
yours blog was the last i knew about u,coz i feel i know u from long ago......
n ur page only made realise how good u are....with your words...
big heart,understanding hand....n very passionate,,,,
iam blissed,that i met u....
toAGENDA7MRA
sweet as sugar.....spontanious.....cute n yet a very interesting person....
i can neva get bored of ur posts.....
ur comments makes me feel am playing football....lol
coz (hey hey hey i love football!)i just love it...n i reply n u reply n there we go playing.....lol
i think in r/l if we met we gonna have lots of fun ....:)
to KIMO
u always made wonder...is she a gal or a boy?
lol.....
u so cutieeeee,n u make me think ur 12yrs old(i totally adore kids...k?)
short but yet full comments,n posts....
toLOST LOVE
ummm ive recently met u,n got to know ur page....
but yet...let me tell
gal u got personality,i can sense though all the distance.....
respectful on your words...nothing less nothing more.....
:)
i cant wait to get to know u more.....
toINTEGRATED FUNCTIONS
guess wat u dont know yet about my page!....lol
am glad ive ran into u.....
i have neva been to yours as well...but for some reason....i always read ur comments on kasber's or agenda's pages....
u make me feel like ur 110yrs old
ok ok ok b4 u kill me.....lol
i mean ur mind is.....ur wise!
to my friends around the world......
to latinarab,to Raji,to Kelly,Nina........
n to you T,u were there for once...n u were my friend....my lover,my family,u were everything i needed.....
u will neva be forgotton...........
love ya all.......

ThE KeMeT

maybe some of you,who really honors me to stop by n read some or all the post i put up,have wondered about,thekemet.....have you?
so i just thought to explian to you wat i meant by it,the reason made me think about it n try to explain it was LOST LOVE,her blog's is oasis of feelings....so that lead me at the end thinking of my own page's name(yeah i got plenty of time...lol)
so
the idea was....i was on downe oneday n some of the gals there....who was ethiopian,which is pretty the same in figures n way of life(but sometimes they are chrisitian)near to my own country (SuDaN)....
she said to me,are u totally sudanese...i said yeah,n she was like...go bk to your all dynasties...u sure...
i thought n for a while n told her my mom's grandma was egyptian!
she said:god when i looked at you,i was so sure there was kemet blood on you....
n from that day,i was kemetty!
lol
so lets explain wat kemet means(i looked it up,n thats what i got )

"Kemet" (keh-MET) is the term ancient Egyptians used as the official name of their country. (Sometimes they also called it Ta-mery, or "beloved land.")
Kemet translates as "Black Land", in reference to the fertile banks and fields surrounding the Nile (black from the soil). In contrast, "deshret" is the term for the "Red Land" or the desert (a modern term derived from "deshret") that surrounds the fertile "kemet".
By using the term Kemet instead of Egypt, we refer to the country by the name its own people called it (Egypt is an English form of the Greek name for this land, Aegyptos, itself derived from Coptic hi(t)-ka(u)-ptah, "the house/temple of the ka of Ptah").

they dont know the country's ppl call it masr...isnt it....lol
ok ok ...nways
probably the black land would have suited us in sudan more....referring to our dark skin... :)

so i have put this on also,to all my ppl over there in egypt....love u all.....

My OtHeR HaLf

MUSIC IS MY COMMUNICATION
POETRY IS MY STORY
LOVE IS MY EXISTENCE
KNOWLEDGE IS MY JOURNEY

SHE WAS MY OTHER HALF
SHE UNDERSTOOD ME SO CLEARLY
WHEN EVERYTHING WASNT AUDIBLE
EVEN WHEN THE MIRROR WAS DIRTY
BECAUSE OF MY FEAR OF HAPPINESS
SHE DECIDED TO JUST WALK AWAY...

UNDERSTANDABLE PATIENCE IS A PRIVLEDGE
BUT I THOUGHT LOVE EXCEEDED TIME EXISTENCE
SO I COULD TAKE ALL THE TIME I NEEDED
MY INFERENCE WAS INCORRECT
AND MY OWNSELF I IMPEDED
IN MY LONLINESS WONDERING
WHO IS REALLY THE OTHER HALF OF ME

SAD HOW SHE KNEW ME AND ALL
I KNEW WAS HER NAME
CRAZY HOW BECAUSE OF THIS INFACUATION
MY MENTAL STATE HAS SOMEWHAT CHANGED
I COULD RELATE EVERY SONG I PLAY
DEDICATE IT TO THE MEMORY OF HER
BUT I DONT I JUST KEEP HER IN THE MEMORY OF THIS VERSE

MUSIC IS MY COMMUNICATION
POERTY IS MY STORY
LOVE IS MY EXISTENCE
AND KNOWLEDGE IS MY JOURNEY

All In Me

There's so much going on
You can think of me
When your hope is gone
You can think of me
To get through anything
You can think of me
I'm here as long as you need me
When nothing seems to work
You can think of me
Your heart is on a search
Let it come to me
I'll make it all reverse
When you think of me
Baby you can see new life through me

Let me be the reason you get through the day
Know that I'll make everything OK
Think of me baby in any way
I'll be all you need
Let me be the one you turn to when there's pain
Baby I will take it all the way
Hide in me, I'll be your secret place'
Cause it's all in me

When it seems no one loves
You can count on me
When pain is all too much
You can count on me
Need someone to trust
You can count on me
I'm here as long as you need me
When you see brighter days
Know that it was me
Tears are wiped away
Don't guess it, it was me
When you realize your pain
Was suffered too by me
Then you know the love in me

Anything you could ever need
Baby I promise you can find in me
Don’t matter if it's a hope or dream
I promise I'll make it realityBreakdown Everyday, every night
Break of dawn
Air of night
Come to meI'll make it righ
tIf you let me
It's all in me
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i love this song,it got 2 things thats special ,1st brandy's great loving voice...and yet the lyrics....
so much love promised to be given ain't that wonderful?
:)

LooK INtO Me

so {M}any thoughts
unspok{E}n
inexpli{C}able with words
Emotions uninhibited by Fear
of the unknown flowing freely
as the Nile
breathing life into ea{C}h pore
Will i w{A}nt more?
If and only if {SHE} truly believes
that this soul is deserving more

Alot More Important than ME

THEY judge us,
Before they know us
THEY assume, before we even
THEY condem us for how we feel with the intentions to make us weak
THEY whisper when we enter
THEY shame us without true reasons
THEY say that its not love when half dont know the meaning
THEY disown us when they find out
THEY close the door right in out face
THEY say that WE all need prayer and that what WE live is a major discrace
But----- YOU dont know me and
I dont know YOU the last I recalled,
I bleed like YOU,
BREATHE like YOU
And have the right to live and love,
just...... like....... YOU
Does the fact the I live differently,
make me unfit?
Does that give you ample reason!
Your so focused on the way I live,
when its something you cannot change
so worried about who Im making LOVE to,
when there are people DYING from....AIDS
When children are being raped,
And some even being abused
when the poverty level is rising,
and pedifiles are lurking in out schools
When gas prices are rising
and people are getting killed
when the unemployment line is growing
but you'd PREFER to take away MY will.....
2 LOVE..... 2 be happy.......
I should not have to FIGHT for the RIGHT
Can't you see there are bigger issues than what goes on in MY life
"I NEED PPL TO WAKE UP AND GET A CLUE.... LOVE DOES NOT HAVE A RACE OR GENDER.....
IT IS WHAT IT IS....
BESIDES HOW CAN YOU THROW STONES WHEN YOU LIVE IN A GLASS HOUSE?
SWEEP AROUND YOUR OWN FRONT DOOR BEFORE YOU SWEEP AROUND MINES.... RESPECT MY MIND.....
BE BLESSED IN THE PROCESS....

I have A Monster Crush On You

when we like someone.....
its all about us....our personality.....n way of thinking....
when u like someone....what do u do?
do u go up to that person n say
hi,i like u?
or u go near n start an interesting talk
n show the best on u....n try to get thier attention and make her like u in return....
n get her to say i like u...instead of u saying it?
or u write love note......spray it with perfume....
nice lovey dovey words......
n put it on her bag?
or mayb write apoem n email it to them?
or just keep it so ur self.....n when she is near...
all ur fingers start to tremple n u cant focus on anything....n
when she talks to u.....u say things ....seems stupid...even to ur self....
what do we do....when we have a crush?
well here a litte thing ....that might be ur thing?!!....lol
:)
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I have a monster crush on you,
A super-dinosaur!
It sits upon my chest and throat
And yet I beg for more.
When you're away I miss you so
My heart is full of sand.
Yet when you're here
my stupid fear Won't let me touch your hand.
I cannot sleep, I cannot eat,
I'm so wrapped up in you.
My thoughts drift up,
away from words,
And fade into the blue.
I know this crush is not your fault;
The dinosaur is mine.
Yet if you could, please rescue me,
And put your arms around me, and hold me,
and say you love me

Beauty and Perfection

one day,by the matter of the chance,,,i met you
you were cute,you were sweet n supurb
u made me smile and laugh to my own screen....
while u sitting there....writing in few letters.......
that captivate me....

you said,i dont know if u were true...
i said believe it or not ....am the one u talking to
porve it to me ,u said....
and i looked down n my fingers typed on my phone
i was on my bed....alone n feeling cold....
the ring i heard....shook me up n i reach out my hand...
hi,u said....could it be you?
i closed my eyes....n the warmth wrapped up my heart
n everytime i slept on....i heard that ring.....n u saying HI

u said,turn on ur webcam....i thought a little
i looked bk to that man n i said,do u happen to have a webcam?
he said oh am sorry....but i can lend u mine....
i smiled n turn on my webcam.....i looked at her....n waved HI

i asked....when am gonna see u?
the silence were all over the place...
she said not now....
i need more time n little space....
i thought for a while....n i said,till sunday u got.....n she just smiled...
she said...hey dont worry i wanna move on to the next phase!

i was ready,i hardly sat on my chair....
waiting for her pic to show on my screen....
....few seconds n she was there
i saw her ......with her short hair.....
she wasnt pretty....but i didnt really care......
she was cute,sweet n supurb.....

at the airport i waited.....
mintues go by n i can hardly stand there......
i looked to the door,n my heart beated hard....
suddenly.... you were there....
coming near with that short hair....
you were cute....sweet.....n supurb

my heart beated faster.....
oh u are soooo beatiful my dear......
thanks to my feeling,when i saw ur pic....that i didnt really care
coz my love....when i saw ur face.....
u were the most beautiful woman,ive laid my eyes on
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i have wrote this long time ago....i was young,n i wasnt used to write alot......
n immature,i think it shows on my words isnt it? :)
it was the 1st time i saw the one i loved.....
guess i was trying to say,its all about feelings n how we see the one we love.....
n well they say
"beauty is in the eyes of the beholder"
isnt it?
:)

Something Called LOVE

dont ever be afraid to come to me and cry
dont ever hesitate to look me in the eye
dont ever be afraid to tell me how you feel
remember your my girl and we gotta keep it real

once upon a time
something happened to me
it was the sweetest thing that ever could be
it was a fanatacy
adream come true
it was ....the day i met you

the first time i met you
i knew it was true
that id love you forever and thats what ill do
you dont know what u do to me
you dont have a clue
you dont know what is it like to be me looking at you

kiss me in the light,
love me in the dark
hold me till the end,
and i promise ill never break our heart

My Last Breath

not all the songs i like is sad,or even slow tunes,there is also some rock n roll along :)
this song is one of my fav,it ROCKS!!....
nice lyrics n so FUN :D hehe
so check it out A7,rem i told u am gonna put some different songs.....
evanescence is one of my fav bands ever.....and god oneday i gotta have to go to one otheir concerts....hopefully....
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Hold on to me love
You know I can't stay long
All I wanted to say was I love you,And I'm not afraid (Ahhh)
Can you hear me ?
Can you feel me in your arms ?

Holding my last breathS
afe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light,
It ends here tonight.

I'll miss the winter
A world of fragile things
Look for me in the white forest,
Hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
I know you hear me
I can taste it in your tears

Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light,
It ends here tonight.

Closing your eyes to disappear
You pray your dreams will leave you here
But still you wake and know the truth
No one's there!Say goodnight
Don't be afraidCalling me,Calling me,
As you fade to black.
Say goodnight
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hope u guys like it.....

Sometimes

Just do it sometimes
Speak to me in words of the heart and worry not how it may sound...sometimes
Express yourself more than pysically but mean the words you speak... sometimes
Speak to me sub-conciously so my heart can hear and my mind can't critizise... sometimes
"Let the dead past bury there dead" and begin living anew with me
Let us watch the sunrise and set over the ocean... sometimes
Lay in the green grass and see shapes in the clouds... sometimes
Stay wrapped up in each others arms long after the orgasims are over... sometimes
Slow dance with me in public when no music is playing... sometimes
Blow me kisses as we part ways and catch the ones I blow...sometimes
Wash the dishes when I make you breakfast in bed...sometimes
Tell me when you just need some room to breath...sometimes
Cry on my shoulder if you feel the need to let it out...sometimes
Look me in the eyes when we kiss and make love...sometimes
Hug me out of the blue for no reason...sometimes
Leave me love notes on post-its in my car...sometimes
Rub my back if you feel the need that I need it...sometimes
Be my rock at the times I fall victim to my emotins...sometimes
Listen to me...sometimes
Trust me...sometimes
Talk to me...sometimesS
poil me...sometimes
Teach me...sometimes
Argue with me...sometimes
Let me just vent...sometimes
Love me...ForeverI'll
Love you Forever

Forgive Me

We always complain,about heart break.....
What people have to offer us,pain...unjustice....and hurt
What if you were the one who did the hurt....
You offer the pain,n stab others....deep in the heart.
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you think i just dont care?
guess what i do have a conscious......
and it kills me to think...you sitting there
Thinking...how much i hurt u.....
touching u in my mind n feeling ur sorrows
cuts deep down....and my head spins around
thinking of how iam gonna live on,tomorrows

would it work if i said am sorry?
would you accept it,for all i have is words?
am eating out my self,to reverse the time and take away ur agony
wishing ihave not come close or opened out those doors....

i never meant to do those cuts.......
i wanted to reach out
to stick around
to prove my fuss

i understand,if u didnt want me around.....
i just want to say,am always here....
.even if i was a burden on your shoulders,,,
i promise,,,,ill keep my distance

forgive me!

Without You

today am on one of my sad moods,so i should put a song get along with it....
its a touchy one,for maraia carey,great voice,,,and sad romanticccccccc....and desparate!
hope u like it....
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No I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way
The story goes

You always smile
But in your eyes
Your sorrow shows
Yes it shows

No I can't forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrow
When I had you there
But then I let you go
And now it's only fair
That I should let you know
What you should know

I can't live
If living is without you
I can't live
I can't give anymore
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't give
I can't give anymore

Well I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way
The story goes

You always smile
But in your eyes
Your sorrow shows
Yes it shows

YOU

You!
Ther were times I felt life couldn't go on without you laying here by my side.
And times I felt I'd cryed more tears than I had
yet they just kept rolling down my face
I never could hurt that deeply
Until a deeper hurt arrived
Now I see that what we had was only perfect in my own sight.
Did I love you cause you were bueatiful or were you bueatiful because I loved you?
Never knew feelings could take over, after walking away for a train wreck broken
Torn and confussed, it hurt me trying to figure out where I went wrong.
I promised to always love you Just couldn't promise my self that you'd love me.
How did we get here? With me so bland of emotions.
Females are gonna hate you Cause I'll never be the same.
Robbed of my purity by thinking you were the one
How stupid could I be to think love was ment for me.
I guess I had to suffer for the pain of your pass, well thanks for passing the gift of pain on.
for all i have done, loving you with all my heart.....n pain is what i got....
would i ever move on again?
would i ever forget our moments together?
forgive me,for the mistakes i have done,for acting as my age .....
for the love i blindley gave
forgive me....for holding on to you,not
for loving you,not
for waiting for you,not

The Hat Seller

A hat-seller who was passing by a forest decided to take a nap under one of the trees, so he left his whole basket of hats by the side.
A few hours later, he woke up and realized that all his hats were gone.
He looked up and to his surprise, the tree was full of monkeysand they had taken all his hats. The man sits down and thinks of howhe can get the hats down. While thinking he started to scratch his head.
The next moment,the monkeys were doing the same.Next, he took down his own hat,the monkeys did exactly the same.
An idea came to him, he took his hat and threw it on the floor and the monkeys did that too. So hefinally managed to get all his hats back.
Fifty years later, his grandson,also became a hat-sellerand had heard this monkey story from his grandfather.
One day, just like his grandfather, he passed bythe same forest.
It wasvery hot, and he took a nap under the same tree and left the hats on the floor.He woke up and realized that all his hats were taken by the monkeys on the tree.
He remembered hisgrand father's words,started scratching his head and themonkeys followed. He tookdownhis hat and fanned himself and again the monkeys followed.
Now, very convinced of his grandfather's idea, he threw his hat onthe floor but to his surprise, the monkeys still held on to all the hats.
Then one monkey climbed downthe tree, grabbed the hat on the floor, gave him a slap and said............ ......... ......
Guess What????????
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"You think only you have a grandfather.......
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i read this story longgggggggggg ago....
today i read it again,n really i couldnt resist putting it,there is just lots of meanings inside it.....
hope u guys like it....

installing love

Installing Love
Tech Support: Yes, ... how can I help you?
Customer: Well, after much consideration, I've decided to install Love. Can you guide me though the process?
Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?
Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready. What do I do first?
Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?
Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are running?
Tech Support: What programs are running ?
Customer: Let's see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.
Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs.

Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off ?
Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?
Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.
Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?
Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.
Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, "Error - Program not run on external components." What should I do?
Tech Support: Don't worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.
Customer: So, what should I do?Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.
Customer: Okay, done.
Tech Support: Now, copy them to the "My Heart" directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.
Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?
Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually
everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.
Customer: Thank you, God.

Long Time No Hear

i have always wondered about this expression
"long time no hear"
its like we say,i miss you soooooooo much that i lost my ability to hear no voice but yours :)
its a very romantic explanation,lol i know....sounds little silly isnt it?
but it does feel like that to me.......
i remembered it,when i was thinking her...that close person to my heart
we have been together most of the time....even when we are not
day n night i would open up my messnger to check if she on or not.....
or my emails to see if she have sent me one of her amazing writings....or even hit her page to see the new posts of her's
and these few days she disappeared.....
and left a hole in my heart n my life........
my dear friend,i miss you....
and with you ,distance doesnt mean as much as it is.....with your thoughts.....advices....your feelings...n big heart
when i meet u again....i guess i would be saying....
hey dear,long time no hear....
n it means more than it looks... :)
what u think about that sentence?

you're still the one

few minutes ago i found my self listening to that song,and oh god i love it alot....so i thought i would put it up,u would enjoy it as well hopefully...(hope u do A7 :)...)
plus i love that woman! "shania twain"......lol
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"You're Still The One"
When I first saw you, I saw love.
And the first time you touched me, I felt love.
And afterall this time, you're still the one I love.
Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We mighta took the long way
We knew we'd get there someday
They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong
(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life
(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only oneI dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night
Ain't nothin' better
We beat the odds togetherI'm glad we didn't listen
Look at what we would be missin'
They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong
(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run toT
he one that I belong toY
ou're still the one I want for life
(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream ofYou're still the one I kiss good night
(You're still the one)You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life
(You're still the one)You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream ofYou're still the one I kiss good night ___________________####________________
and my fav part is...
you still the one i run to,the only one i belong to....the one that i want for life
romantic isnt is?
too bad that our world isnt that romatic!
to u"T" i dedicate this song,n when i saw you.....i saw love!
:) hope u like it

Why Does she Wants ME

Why does she want me?
Does fancy writing change a thing when it comes to my feelings?
Do I love you more or less cause my hand writing is a mess?
I do not have a million bucks then am I out of luck?
If I become that in which you want of me then do you love me for me?
Are you in love with me or the dreams of how life will be?
Are you in it cause we match financially?
Is it the new whip and new Timb’s that make you want me?
I’ m with someone who takes me at my worst
Who’s seen me un-kept an un-done
The one who fights to see me on a bad day
Tries to put the sparkle back into my eyes
The more she shows me her love the more she makes me love her
I wake each day to reality
She is really real and she’s with me Someone who chooses to be loved
Chooses not to be abused Someone who sees a good thing and knows it.
She knows she’s sexy, knows her body better than all
Knows she could have any woman or man in the world
Still she chooses me She knows her dreams can take her anywhere
Know how to work what she’s got to get what she want
Still she wants me But Why?
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God knows...i jus cant stop steeling good words!...lol
why?....why does she loves me?
thats a Q we all sometimes ask ourselves ,isnt it?

Time Stood Still

my dear friend"agenda 7mra" has inspired me to look up into my madonna songs again n i remember this one coz i loved it so much,it have a good music,voice,lyrics....n the feeling is GREAT! thats how madonna can be sometimes....so please listen up to it,n thanks "A7"

Despair, regret, and tenderness
Is what I feel for you
I loved you from the very start
What else could I do
You read my mind,
you made me cry

Time stood still
And now I know the reasons why
Time stood still

Maybe you're the next best thing to happen
All the things we might have been

A flame becomes a fading light
That burns inside my heart
And like a castle in the sand
It had to fall apart

You made me laugh,
you gave me hope
It's over now
Our happiness went up in smoke
It's over now
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so hope u like it,my favourite bit is "A flame becomes....."
thx again A7 for da memories u brought bk to my mind made me dig up on my files :)
listen to that song n tell me what u think,k....

SOME WORDS

When a GIRL is quiet ...
millions of things are running in her mind.
When a GIRL is not arguing ...
she is thinking deeply.
When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ...
she is wondering how long you will be around.
When a GIRL answers " I'm fine " after a few seconds ...
she is not at fineat all.
When a GIRL stares at you ...
she is wondering why you are lying.
When a GIRL lays on your chest ... s
he is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.
When a GIRL says " I love you " ...
she means it.
When a GIRL says " I miss you " ...
no one in this world can miss you more than that.
Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person ....
Find a guy(agirl,oh yes) ...
who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
who calls you back when you hang up on him(HER!).
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy(come on its GAL) who ... kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his(hmmm..u know) friends. W
ho is constantly reminding you of how much he(put the S) cares about you and how lucky he(..) is to have you.
Who turns to his friends and says, " That's her!! "
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Nice isnt it?
:)

why chewing gum banned in singapore

Do you know the reason why Singapore government restricts the citizens not to chew gum? Here is the story....
One day Lee Kwan Yew went to Thailand and had lobster at the dinner with the Thai King. After Lee finished, he asked the King
Lee : Your Highness, what can you do with this lobster shell?
King: We cannot do anything with it, we just throw away.
Lee : Oh, no In our country, we send it to the factory and produce some praw cracker.
Then Lee had an orange.
After he finished, he asked theKing.
Lee : What can you do with the orange skin?
King : We cannot do anything. We just throw away.
Lee : Oh, no. In Singapore, we send it to the factory and produce some orange jam.
Then Lee asked for some chewing gum.
After he finished, he put on the plate and asked the King.
Lee : What can you do with the chewing gum?
King : Oh, no. We just throw it away.
Lee : In Singapore, we send it to the factory and produce condoms send it to Thailand.
Lee said good-bye to the King and the King asked Lee
King : What can you do with the condom when you finish using it?
Lee : We cannot do anything. We throw it away.
King : In Thailand when we finish using the condom, we send it to the
factory to produce chewing gum and send it back to Singapore!!!

Whiskey lullaby

by brad paisly featuring alison krauss

She put him out like the burnin' end of a midnight cigarette
She broke his heart he spent his whole life tryin' to forget
We watched him drink his pain away a little at a time
But he never could get drunk enough to get her off his mind
Until the night

He put that bottle to his head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away her memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength he had to get up off his knees
We found him with his face down in the pillow
With a note that said I'll love her till I die
And when we buried him beneath the willow
The angels sang a whiskey lullaby

The rumors flew but nobody know how much she blamed herself
For years and years she tried to hide the whiskey on her breath
She finally drank her pain away a little at a time
But she never could get drunk enough to get him off her mind
Until the night

She put that bottle to her head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away his memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength she had to get up off her knees
We found her with her face down in the pillow
Clinging to his picture for dear life
We laid her next to him beneath the willow
While the angels sang a whiskey lullaby
(Sing lullaby)

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first time i listened to that song i felt truely SAD!
though i couldn't really get all the lyrics straighted out on my mind so i had to look it up on the net....n when i read i knew why it had to be that SAD.
i love this song big time n i think to make someone feel that sad from a tune and words!....makes this pieace one of a kind.....

please if u didnt listen to that song...HURRY!
download it .....coz your missing it, abig time.....
and if u could't find it iam happily ready to email it up to ur ADD,,,
R_J

when the storm HIT

its far away....but u can feel it,so quiet...so bloomy.....so scarey and so close.
when its near u can see the light,see the dark....do nothing but waiting for it...to HIT
when it HITS......we ask for mercy,but its too late.

how hard is it to tell our closed one's,the people we love that we are not who we are....we are only a moving picture of who we are...who they think we are....
how can we say,,,,we are all those who u been talking about with the !!!.....the perverts!! the fagets!!...."oh they disgust me" and i reply with a smile.....pale smile.....and the voice within me yelling ...."am i disgusting!...am i pervert!....its me who u talking about"....

i learned my lessons,there must be lesson from this....we should not judge people....we should not judge them with thier lookings......we should forgive we should tolerate....we should bear the bad treatment.....even from our loved people.....

this is a call for everyone .....please,do not judge....you are no angels! nobody is....