Journey of Life

this is our Youth Force 4th youth camp. i'm glad that i've been to all camps organised by YF! haha.. and this time i'm honoured to be the committee.. after months of planning, we thank God that it was an awesome one!! :)) this camp is slightly different from previous one. it's more on giving instead of just receiving all the time. the more u give, the more u'll receive from God. amen! God moves mightily! i truly enjoyed the time spent with my F4 cell group members!! another different about this camp is that none of my gang's girls are here. so it's really different as in it's my turn to take care of the younger generation! haha.. talking and playing.. can u believe that we were playing pepsi cola and 'ice and water' on the last night of camp!? haha.. back to the younger days.. enjoyed the dare session too!!! all in all, thank God for everything. uni starts :( but i'm excited to see what GOd's going to do in my next semester! God has bless...

Christmas is the best season of the year! i truly enjoyed this year's Christmas.. caroling everywhere! haha..but i'm having sore throat now dy :( thanks to tk and myee, had a great christmas eve with everyone! would love to post up photos but i lost my camera the other day at mid valley :( so no more camera and that explains my facebook status, Beatrice is afraid. haha..was super afraid to tell parents since it's new.. but it's over now.. anyway, Merry Christmas!!

so sad after the haircut.. i think 5inches of my hair gone!! argh! lesson #1 never say 'anything' when the hairdresser asks what kinda hair u want him to cut lesson #2 let him explain IN DETAIL what kinda hair he'll cut lesson #3 don't trust any hairdresser so much.. (like i always do) lesson #4 stay loyal to one shop.. dun be like me, shop hopping all the time lesson #5 think, think and pray before u go!! (when can i curl my hair?? i think gotta wait till next christmas dy :(((((( )

it was few months ago at PERKEB when isabel asked me if i'm interested in joining debate competition or not. i was thinking why don't i give it a try since i never try before. i nodded my head and that's when i started my debating journey. i still remember vividly my first training in kkm's cafe. all of us were supposed to give a small speech on legalising prostitution. even that few mins of talking makes me shiver. my first debate, i didn't even finish 3 mins and we were required to speak at least 7 mins. i joined the VC cup and it was a sweet memory although it was not easy. thanks to great seniors like darryl, jeslyn, sharma etc. ROYALS was a whole new different experience altogether. it's a debate competition among public university. after going through selections and trainings, my team mates for Royals is the same as VC cup. first impression of IIU - i can't believe their kolej is so IKEA-ish! don't feel like going back to UKM dy. haha.. anyway, to ...

the amazing journey of semester one has come to an end. i've experienced many awesome things and feelings that no words can comprehend. thank God that my final exam is over! PTL! i really wanted to post up more photos of my uni life but i guess, it's not the time yet, i'm pretty caught up with many things! before that, i wanna share something interesting with u guys :p as most of you know, food is something that can make me happy. i love nasi lemak ( i mean, i used to love it) but having nasi lemak everyday makes me sad and fat. so last two sun, i was really depressed. i had exam on a sun. sun is supposed to be a happy sabbath day but i had exams and gotta study the following day's paper. on top of everything, i miss my family and i miss food! ( i mean not uni food) so, i called my dear almighty daddy to complain (merajuk la). i never need to worry on what to eat on the following meal but not at that time. tears literally rolled down to my cheek! i am not exaggurating. ...

to STARBUCKS !!! haha.. this whole week has been crazily hectic and stressful in uni.. once you wake up from sleep, it means exams, preparing for exams,seeing ppl studying, hearing ppl talking about exams, seeing ppl sitting for exams,or even CRYING for exams, until you go to bed! i couldn't stand it any longer! to make things worst, ukm's food is PATHETIC ! i'm sick of eating 3 nasi lemaks a day, mee siam, waffle, curry mee, and all those really fattenign food! trust me, it is nice for one week but not the whole semester! on top of everything, i DON'T HV A CAR!! argh! if only i've a car, i'll go ard hunting for good food! haha.. i even wanted to go home on last night itself! i called mum and BEGGED her to bring me home! but she wouldn't. because she knows once i return home, it means hanging out, sleeping and all the other things that a lazy ppl will do. haha.. but thanks to william, after bugging him, he finally agreed to bring me to starbucks to 'stud...

yesterday was my birthday, was also michelle chan, joel yap, chinn pei, phik yin, jolynn's bday! haha.. everyone wants to born on the same day as me!! jkg jkg.. :P but today is my final exam :( thank God my first paper is over now! He helped me lots!! thanks everyone for ur bday wishes, calls, presents, prayers and surprises!! was really touched by ur effort :)) thanks for remembering my big day! i'm a new freshie in the world of 20's.. a year 'wiser' i guess.. haha.. would luv to write more but i've gtg! haha.. next time ya.. God bless you all :)) beatrice

is how i feel when i thought i know something but actually i don't, even after trying to understand it for a long time! @_@ is when i'm really hungry but there's no food around!! when i know i wasted so much time doing nothing beneficial..

when i look at the sunrise, it reminds me of God's awesome creation.. there's no problem too big for God to solve, there's no problem too little for God not to care, because He's the almighty God, who created us and the amazingly beautiful sunrise..

Motion - this house believes that we should go for debate training camp! i as the prime minister of the government team would like to strongly agree with this motion. haha.. crap! exam is next week but i just came back from my debate training camp on my study week! that's bad. but it's ok, at least i learnt a lot of things, at least i think i did? haha.. we had like 5 rounds a day and 13 rounds in 3 days! amazing huh!? we debated until past 3am almost 4am! despite being so tired and worn out, everyone still kept their spirits up! sometimes i do have a problem of debating on a topic where i've no idea about! like open source, dalai lama, genetic research, etc etc. but somehow we managed to crap something out.. would like to tell you more but i'm just too tired.. with this, i rest my case. good night!

stoning, is what i feel like doing. piling work and endless of datelines make me sick. i am afraid. afraid of the outcome, afraid to face my weakness, afraid to fail, afraid to be laughed at.i want an escape from reality and stress, an escape to a place of serenity,a place of security, a place with love. "Be still and know that I am God." i need to be rejunevated and refreshed. i want to run to His arms, that is the place i can find everything that i want - love, peace and security. i know He will always love me for who i am , accept me eventhough i fail, and give me hope when i'm on the verge of giving up. i need you Lord. i dare not face tomorrow if you are not with me. lead me to the green pastures and lie with me by the quiet waters, restore my soul. You're my first love, and will always be mine. "be still and know that I am God."

Tun Mahathir, the well respected ex-PM is in UKM now!!!!! but i can't see him :(( ************************** the joy of the Lord is my strength!!

take away my fears and insecurities.. replace it with ur love and peace.. let me lie down on the green pastures.. in the midst of all the storm, teach me to be still and know that u're God.. and u're in control of everything.. i surrender it all unto You.. thank you Jesus i love you Amen

trusting God in all things is sometimes not as easy as it seems. it is NOT merely speaking but really believing and claiming His Word and promiseZ. i can be charged guilty of that at times. i do know the bible verses well and can even counsel ppl of how faithful God is. however, sometimes when i'm in a shoe of uncertainty and desperateness, i tend to worry, worry, and worry! which i know is unpleasing to God. which is why it frustrates me even more. cos since i'm worrying a lot, i'm not pleasing God, and there's another thing to worry, which is - gosh, i'm not pleasing God and bla bla bla. as i reflect back, this week was not an easy week. being caught up with due dates is one thing, but feeling emotionally burdened is another thing altogether. i do not know what really happened that makes me so fearful and worried. even as i cried out to God to take this terrible feeling away from me as it was so burdenful, but day after day, the feeling seemed to be haunting me da...

the magnificent waterfall, creation of God, that i couldn't take my eyes off it.. i'm back from field trip at Tenaga Nasional Berhad Research Forest.. it was totally exhausting yet fulfilling trip :) learnt so much in these 3 days. We were really close touch with the nature! esp the lovely waterfall. i just love jumping and getting wet in it! haha..will upload photos and share more about it soon, i hope! i need rest now.. good nite! :D

Lo and behold, i'm back in uni! but i'm not very excited actually.. pretty reluctant to drag myself here.. i guess i've been enjoying and relaxing too much during the holidays that i slacked. but i'm quite thankful that i managed to do some of the things that i planned to do during the holidays. i managed to catch up with most of my friends and even some of my youths! ;) so happy for all the moments that we have spent with each other! and yes, fellowshipping in Malaysia means makaning as well.. and i gained another 2kg in this 2 weeks!! so crap right!? (hmm.. no pics, i tot of posting them but i'm pretty lazy to do so..hehe) youth leaders retreat was a real retreat! haha.. great food served by HaiYen ;) thanks so much for the steamboat and bbq!! haha.. at last i get to fly kite!!!! i dreamed of playing for so so logn dy! playing captain ball is real fun too! but i guess joel enjoyed the most! (you know why! *sly grin*) best of all fellowshipping with one another and...

my family "A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity." Prov. 17:23 27th Sept 1989, a sweet girl was born. Wisdom is her name (Sin Ying). A big eyes, a lovely smile and above all, a heart of gold. i rmbr once when we were young, we argued over some petty stuff. This girl was unhappy and she blocked my way down at the staircase. I was so furious that time that i pushed her down the staircase! Imagine, from the top, she rolled all the way down to the bottom! Blood gushed out and I was just standing there, pointing my fingers putting the blame on her! So mean of me right!? Ccan't imagine I did this! btw, parents were at Singapore at that time cos grandpa undergo operation, we were under our babysister's care. I rmbr this incident SO well! wanna know the ending of the incident?? my innocent sister just forgive and FORGET after the pain was gone! (makes me really guilty) as we move from a child to a teenager, quarrels and disagreements are inevitabl...

another girls day out wif my dear uni fren, jenny at one-u ;) we've been grumbling and waiting for the chance to SHOP since dunno when.. at last, our dream came true and here with are - a day at 1 utama! i drove here, and i DIDN'T get lost! haha.. i'm terrible in road direction, hence, i took these photos as i walk my way to find my fren.. and guess wat!? even with all these photos that i took, i lost my way.. i couldn't rmbr which carpark did i come out from!! and ended up finding the carpark officer. She was so sweet, she even used walkie-talkie to ask the security guards to find my car! since i totally forgot which floor i came out.. *super sweat!!* this is where my dear car was! i was lk some crazy girl taking pics while walking all the way! haha i like this but i didn't buy it.. kinda regretted the blue and the green.. fahao-ing in fitting room haha it's another great day spent, not only shopping but fellowshipping too ;) she's a real special girl...

one of the priorities that i made for this holiday is meeting up with old frens and yes, it has been a LONG time since i last met my form 6 frens.. so we decided to hv a girls day out once again! haha..the last time was just meeting over breakfast.. since phik complained, i made sure that i make myself available for them so that we won't have a gathering over supper..haha.. we went to time square (5th time in ts!) then to pavillion ;) i bought lotsa earrings together wif my sis;) so happy! SUPER long din go shopping dy.. being 'quarantined' in ukm.. and so here we are, having lunch at TGIF.. sadly doris have to leave earlier after an emergency call from home.. sigh.. it was a great time chatting,eating and laughing with these girls.. wonderful time spent together, reminising the good old days of form 6, complaining how old we have turned, seeing how much we've grown in uni, sharing our good and bad moments, comparing who gained the most weight (wah2, u lost!) and of cos...

it's past 1am, and i'm still here facebooking.. now i truly understand why ppl say facebook is addictive!! my first time facebooking for so long!! anyway, i wanna go zz dy ;)) nite ppl!! long live alam damai for having free wireless connection! haha..

HOLIDAY STARTS!! i went to a camp last weekend.. it's sort of like the first time i attend a non-christian, all chinese camp. it's an eye-opener.. very different from the camps i used to attend.. i got a culture shock on the first day when they seperated us into diff apartments.. guys and girls can stay in the same apartment and the same room!!? gosh! i made sure i dun zz near a guy!! normally in other school or church camps, it's like guys are SO NOT allowed in girls room but this time, we can even stay and zz together! i sound a lil old fashion but i think it's still not so right esp when u barely know each other.. anyway, there's nothing else to talk about the camp, my 2 weeks holiday will be interesting!! there's so many things that i want to do! so i mus plan my time well and set my priorities right.. first and foremost, meeting up with all my old friends.. it has been a long time since i last meet up with them!!! and yes, what girls like to do the most? SH...

Even as i look into the mirror when i wake up these few mornings, i am 'disgusted' with the reflection i saw in the mirror. A pallid, round, fleshy face with obvious dark circles around the tired looking eyes. When i looked further down, i am even more sickened! Excess fats enveloping my whole body!! ok, i think i'm talking like i'm aneroxic but yes, seriously! the fatest me was during starbucks period, but now i'm worst than that!! i'm supposed to be thinner when i enter uni, everyone does, except for me! ;(( and yes, i think i look so the horrible now! i feel like squeezing out all my fats! it's so frustrating when u pull out an old pants to wear, suddenly realizing that it became so tight that you've to use all ur strength and might to squeeze in ur tummy in order to button up ur pants! that's how bad it is now!! no wonder my family is ALWAYS nagging n bugging me about it! shattered my self confidence.. and so, beatrice has a goal now! which is to...

Lord, i need ur guidance.. i need ur discipline.. i need ur wisdom.. Amen. "Seek ye first the kingom of God and all these things will be added unto you."

i'm going to another c a m p this weekend ;)) once again, i'm excited!! exams gonna end this thursday.. and this means H.O.L.I.D.A.Y. !!! : D and i hope i won't get sunburn!! ;p

bayu beach resort 27-30 dec 2008 ps elijah kong http://yfcamp2008.blogspot.com YFcampcomm08@gmail.com since i'm part of the camp committee, i can assure you it's gonna be really different this time! there's a really interesting session ;) what's it, i'm not gonna reveal here first.. haha suspense ma.. SIGN UP!! first come first serve! we're targetting about 250 ppl!! first 50 ppl who sign up will get a mysterious gift ;)) go for the t-shirt design competition!!! super lucrative prize for the grand champion!! what's it?? secret ;)) but i can assure you u'll love it!! im going! r u?? bring ur frens along ;))) they'll be blessed!

This weekend has been a totally great!! well, i should say this whole month. there were ups and downs but one thing for sure - God is always there and He is ever-faithful!! ;)) even as i reflect back, what i can say about this whole month is LOVE ! God has told me how much He loves me in so many ways!!! even at times when i'm lonely or desperate, He will send friends to knock on my roomdoor to shower me with hotchoc, waffer, encouragements etc; my family who is always supporting me ALL THE WAY no matter how ridiculous my request is (oops!) and most of all, God's word that affirms me each time of His love! and yes, my UKM Score is 1J! 1 stands for first year student. J is Jesus, my lover. haha.. (it's a trend in Ukm to hv this score) ************* Since Jo's leaving today, we had a lovely 'branch' wif Ps. Mike and d 3 of us at the Curve.. great food and environment ;)) time well spent fe...

this week has been a great week, had pizza party on monday with friends.. buka puasa with the malays, going to other colleges' pesta tanglung, talking till late night, had my first cell group meeting in UKM etc etc.. AND MY FIRST TIME JOGGING from my college to the stadium! amazing huh!? that day i had a sudden strong urge to go on diet! haha i hope this stamina will last!! but!! all those equals to late night sleep and today i was SO SO exhausted!! had an hour class and went back all the way back to my college to ZZZ!! feel so recharged and refreshed now!! eating at my favourite backery in UKM.. my exam will end next week and i'll have 2 weeks of holiday!!!!!!!!!!! it means shopping, catching up wif frens, eating, and SLEEPING at my own comfy bedroom!! ;)) ok, this is another very random post since i din get to online so often.. haha.. take care!!

my first time attending PERKEB's camp! it was in golden sand PD, nice place, nice food! haha.. enjoyed super lots! let the pictures speak for itself first ;) me, jenny and isabel - all first year 'quiet' students.. hall where we've our gathering/ sessions our speaker, bro michael.. enthusiastic and really brought us IN DEPTH to d scriptures;) beautiful scenery!!! can have beach wedding here! haha we met another campers from sabah too. they're really cool and musically inclined ppl so we sang along and danced while he plays guitar ;D totally wet after telematch.. makan time!!! talent nite - cerita cinta sang buaya dan sang kancil.. besides all the fun and good food, the preaching was impactful as well!! since it was on national day, we had a session "Prayer 4 Malaysia". since it's PERKEB, we sang songs in malay and all. the best thing is that the song's lyrics talked about malaysia and our country etc, it's like a prayer itself. and yes,...

beautiful beach!! chikok and i.. my coursemate, blockmate, and floor mate pulau kapas cool man!! this is the coolest thing that has ever happened in my college!! i can actually online in my college!! haha so happy! which is why i'm sitting here typing this while actually i'm supposed to study for my mid sem which is coming up soon :) but it's ok.. i brewed coffee, so will stay up to study..haha..enjoy my wireless facility is more important!! i'm deprived from connection with the outside world for a long time! haha.. anyway, yes, it has been a long time since i last blog..well, blame the internet connection but now, i get to online dy! i hope this will last! i am studying environmental science, well.. i guess i'm more environmental conscious after 2 months of lectures! haha.. GO GREEN! it's a really interesting course, i went pulau kapas for field trip. more like a holiday trip! pictures up soon i hope.. gonnna go another field trip soon!! :D Thank God for thi...

gosh.. it has been such a long time since i relax and online!!! i'm on-line in my uni's hostel now, kolej keris mas :) sadly have to pay.. since it's the first day of our class, i'm very very free compared to the hectic but fulfilling orientation week ;) my room is good, got a good roommate, thank God! of course in the beginning i hated this place so much! the room is stuffy and humid. there's a kind of annoying and irritating pungent smell.. eww.. i went back home to bring air purifier, box fan etc but the smell just won't go! and so in the 2nd week, i brought hippo water absorver, stronger chemical for air purifier and air ioniser BUT THE SMELL IS STIL THERE though it is still not so bad.. talkign about the toilet.. first few days i dunno how to bath at all! the floor is so dirty.. full of hair and all.. eww.. so disgusting but eventually i got used to it.. and best of all, bathing with icy cold water..gosh! cant imagine i'm leaving the comfort of my home ...

recently i've been really busy in my uni preperations!! barely have the time to online too!! but God is really good, He has blessed me a place in uni, really supportive parents, caring sisters (they say they will cry when i leave!! pls help me to check on them if they really cried or not!), and also great frens!! although it has been a hectic week, but i really enjoyed every single moment of it!! thank God for everything!! i pray that i can be a history maker in UKM, serving Him and glorifying His name! :)) p.s. influence photos and other photos will be uploaded soon! haha.. gtg, got breakfast appointment! haha

after a LONG holiday since stpm, i almost forgot how's the feelings of exams! until i today.. the exam was pretty tough but thank GOd He brought me through :) as for the oral, gosh! i mistakened a newspaper as a diary! but hopefully the examiners are sweet enough to give this blur girl some marks.. it really looks like a diary!! haha.. and i had a 'big' discovery! my german teacher is actually my friend's mother!! gosh! what a small world we have!! results gonna be out soon! *cross fingers* Gott sei Dank! ;) ************** emily's supposed to be here around 7 and now it's almost 830!!! em, i'm expecting a BIG treatment for you! haha..

Morgen ist meine Deutsch Prüfung ^_^ Gott helfe mir!! Bitte betet für mich! AMEN! :))

at 1245am, a text message from PIK WAH.. it sounded like this, you can check your uni application via this website.. instantly, i was not tired anymore!! i was thinking if i shud check it now or not and so i decided to give joanne a call.. haha and she told me i should check and... I'M ACCEPTED FOR LOCAL UNIVERSITY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! end of my worry!! praise the Lord!! i can't describe the joy that i have right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so i'll be in UKM studying environmental science!!! i can't describe the joy that i have right now! really, it's GOd who helped me!! i thank GOd for everything!!! i'm so so happy!!! praise the LOrd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm staying in KL!!! :):):):):):):):)

after working for 3 months, this is my first time taking photos in starbucks queen's park.. haha coincidentally i brought my camera there since i forgot to take it out from my bag and best of all emily was working as well!! ;) so we fa hao together gether..haha ahh!!!! we heart starbucks merchandise rack!! haha our bar, the place we conquer!! coffee tasting time! but i'm more interested in the cake!! yummy... pro baristas we make the best coffee in cheras!! haha.. i drew it!! nice leh!! ~~ pastry case.. i love to look at it!! it's pretty interesting working in starbucks, u can meet lots of ppl and all.. great experience!! haha. best of all we've free employee's beverage after working :) which explains my rounded face over these few months!! grr~~

i don't know what i want!? here or there?? sigh..

really meaningful.... tonight i saw a shooting star made me wonder where you are for years I have been dreaming of you i wonder if you're tinking of me too in this world of cheap romance and love that only fades after the dance they say that I'm a folto wait for something more how can I really love someone I've never seen before i have longed for true love every day that I have lived and I know real love is all about learning how to give i pray that God will bring you to me i pray you'll fnd me waiting faithfully chorus faithfully, I am yours from now until forever faithfully I will write write you a love song with my life' cause this kind of love's worth waiting for no matter how long it takes I am yours faithfully, faithfully verse 2 tonight I saw two lovers kiss reminded me of myown loneliness they say that i'm a fool to keep on praying for you how can i give up pleasure for a dream that won't come true but i will keep believing that God still has ...

CHURCH CAMP!! it was a great and memorable one!! :) wif lotsa great food, great company, great scenary, and most importantly, great presence of God! everything was just so lovely!! in the car :) stefanie the lame queen 'entertaining' us in the long journey! tommy - the one who dunno geography well, haha..so in d end got 'burnt up' janice! the youngest driver in camp! yours sincerely :p ready to go!!! second day of camp :) jan and i during the break connie ng, janice tan, beatrice and another janiec tan! sand city lovely time in d sea half done sand castle in our room - what girls do? my first roomate my another roommate who snooze the alarm for more than an hour and made me cant sleep!!! grr..!!! jancie and the handsome guy!! sleeping time!! yippeee~~ supposingly play cards but elwin too ffk!!! exploring penang city:P emily and i lunch time cendol on a hot day!! 'tam ziak' fatty elwin had another bowl of laksa shopping for local delicacies :) sup...