Bailey Turns 2!

I cannot believe it has been 2 years since we welcomed our sweet Angel into this world. Sometimes the emotions just hit me, and it feels like yesterday that we heard the news. I know that life must go on, and it needs to for Cooper, but sometimes I just need to travel back, back to a time where I didn't feel so sad sometimes, to when I didn't know such sad and lonely things could happen. I miss my baby girl so much. This past month has been really hard for us, but I am so proud of how far we have come. I know Bailey is so proud of me, that I can make it through a day, and a week, a month and even two or three without crying for her. I know that Bailey wants me to be a great mommy for her baby brother, because she misses him too. I know that our family had been blessed in ways we can't even imagine both on this earth and when we return to heaven, because Bailey was willing to cut her time on this earth short to serve in heaven. It is amazing to know that I am her mommy, and I love it. It's so strange how she appears just at the right times, her name it everywhere! Whenever I see her name on a sign, or see a little girl who has the same name, I know it's her way of saying that she's here and everything is going to be ok. What an amazing reunion it will be to see my baby girl again in Heaven, words cannot even describe the joy her mommy and daddy will feel when we see her again. Till we meet again Bailey, stay close to mommy and help her stay strong. Watch over baby brother Cooper, he loves you so much, my misses his big sissy. Daddy loves you too baby girl, and wishes you were here to watch football games with him, and sing and dance. We love you little Bailey girl, keep working hard, and we'll see you soon.

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Here is Bailey's turning 2 video, it does have music so turn it up!

Memorial

So we attended Grandpa Cray's memorial on Monday, it was really beautiful. It was fun to hear silly stories about him,and see all of his family gather together to remember him. It was a pleasure to know him over these last few years, and he was a really great Grandpa. It was so sad to see Grandma Cray say her last good bye, as they lowered him into the ground, I told Craig I never want to do that, it just looked so painful.I'm happy though, because he is in a much better place, he is seeing his twin brother again which I think would be so amazing, and he is also seeing all of his other family including his son who died at a young age. What a wonderful time it is for him to be freed of all his ailments, and he to able to breath and walk again. He will be missed.

Weekend get away

So we finally went on a vacation this year! It has been a year since our last one so it was so nice to get away from work and everyday life for a while. We went up to Idaho for our annual GFL Draft, if you don't know what it is don't ask haha. It was really really fun though I know Craig really loves it and he was proud to have his baby boy there. It does bring some sad feelings though because I always think of 2 years ago when we couldn't go because I was about to pop with Bailey. That is the night Craig and I talked about what if she died, Craig wanted to go himself so bad but I couldn't let him leave because I was so scared something would happen. It was so strange that I almost knew that she wasn't going to live, like I was being prepared for it. It is so hard to talk about, especially with her 2nd birthday coming up, but I know it is important. It was very soothing to have baby Cooper at the draft with me this year though! He is my little miracle, I don't know what I would do without him! Cooper had fun playing with all the cousins! I think he thinks girls have cooties still though, haha.We all had so much fun, and we sad to come back home to real life.