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really don't like it when things like that happen.


SUNDAY

church. :) okay i was quite tired. though i still don't know why. almost went in to the kitchen but didn't in the end. it's nice to be in the full service once in a while haha.

hmm lazy afternoon. and oyako don for dinner again haha. too much food. thank you for cooking. :) and walking me out again even though you are handicapped and have to walk down the stairs backwards. ;p

blast from the past (?) cartoon-themed life group this thursday! i've decided who i'm going to be already. :D just have to find something to wear haha. so eggciting.

dilemma! zzz.

okay should be studying now.





kenangan terindah

woke up early this morning to go to peninsula hot springs! the weather was quite bad (rainy, windy etc) but on hindsight it was a good thing. :) we got a bit lost on the way but we got there in the end. i saw a wild rabbit hopping into the bush on the side of the road. :)

the hot springs were really very hot. everyone thought corinna and jocelyn were crazy for being able to take the 40-42C pool. i couldn't even put my foot in. it would have been nice to have one between the two lower temperatures though. and i think joce and yuwan were crazy to jump into the cold pool.

we had brunch in between baths, i think it was a good deal. everyone was saying we can't put the photos on fb unless it's in an album only for private viewing. either that, or only the pictures of us in robes can go up haha.

after the whole hot spring thing we showered and presented ivy with her gifts and drove off. poor elaine was the only one awake in our car i think. :x okay i think chyi wei didn't sleep much either. i had a headache from the vasodilation i think.

went to ivy's house to help fold boxes and cut paper. and we had lunch too - pizza, garlic bread, spinach and feta pastries, nuggets, cookies. :) thank you for feeding us. :)

went home for a while, then took 703 to clayton with yuwan, christina, and anna. met mang yik and melissa along the way too. had dinner at korean garden and then we grilled ivy haha. she got a score of about 67%. ;p wonder what the forfeit will be. ;p

then we went home again. am very tired..... going to sleep goodnight.


through You, blind eyes are opened, strongholds are broken. i am living by faith. nothing is impossible.

omnia or f480. ;p is samsung really that bad.

uploading photos to fb because i didn't feel like sleeping. which is weird, because i am tired. hmm. but i'll sleep after this. have to get up by 6 tomorrow! :O

tomorrow is so exciting haha.

two days ago i realised that i need more art, or craft, or maybe just creativity, in my life. it feels good to make things (other than muffins). :)

okay baby steps. you have to be at contemplation before preparation, and then action, and hopefully maintenance.. heh. it is possible. stop being so terminal. patience.

apparently it is a very common thing to own bathrobes here in australia. haha. never knew that.


not to add insult to injury

pbl this morning from 9.20 ish until 10.20. three pbl patient cases in one hour, our tutor is amazing. and he left in a hurry after, as usual. then we were all lazy and unprepared and everyone cancelled the afternoon tutes haha.

the weather was so good. so we decided to go out! haha. i can never resist. went to knox, thank you for running for the bus. ;p you are very unfit. ;p

had jester's pies for lunch again, same as the first (and last) time we went. so unoriginal haha. walked around trying to find perlini's. bad direction sense. and guess what. perlini's closed down! :O so. have to wait haha.

then i ended up shopping. :O oh noooo all my resisting chicken chips and zouki wedges and cooking lunch for wednesdays has gone down the drain. :( really cannot shop for the rest of the year now. although i didn't buy expensive stuff. rawr. but i am quite happy with my loot haha.

the country road bag is really nice though. except that it costs $299 hahaha fine i think i'd rather get the diana mini and flash. oh we saw polaroid film which was like $39.95 for 10. :O omg. and $79.95 for 30, which isn't that bad. oh well i still have 24. and i'm counting on the impossible project. not a shopaholic okay.

cookies and cream milkshake from wendy's. and then we produced some vitamin D while waiting for the bus. :) i really need to go back to sg and tan. i am white now. :( slept on the way back, so so tired.

went to uni to.. blah blah ahem i will tell you when there is something concrete. or not. so embarrassing. went to the apple shop and oohed and ahhed at the macbooks and iMacs haha. pretty. took the bus back, taking full advantage of my monthly metcard. :)

anyway. might be going to korea instead of the US for holiday at the end of the year, they say US is too expensive. and we can ski in korea.. although i don't want to ski, and i can't really imagine my sister wanting to either. but i'm going to bangkok with my mother and sister. :) probably in january next year. whee. :)

i want a new phoneee. am wondering if the iphone is worth waiting for, especially with all the exploding iphones.. and everything.

going for life group! soon. hope it won't be too cold tomorrrow.


so rescue me from hanging on this line

finally managed to print the article at home, after wasting too many sheets of paper. sigh. at least the assignment is ready to be handed in. :) it is due tomorrow anyway. haha.

weird feeling to be asked to write the path slip when the 5th year was right there.. the new patient in ED was so pleasant. didn't stick around to continue the ward round after the meeting (we didn't even go for the meeting), went to see patients on our own instead. wonder if we really need to get IDCs signed off.

decided to take the rest of the day off and went grocery shopping. came back, had lunch, and did my pbl task.

it's kind of _____ (i don't know how to describe it) to take the first step because if you do you have to be committed to follow it through. like you only do certain tests if it's going to affect your diagnosis or treatment plan, and you're prepared to deal with the consequences of what you find.. so.. well. if you know what i'm talking about then you know what i'm talking about. okay probably no one will know what i'm talking about.

ookay. hope tomorrow will go well.

i think i am going to get a diana mini for my birthday. :D plus the flash. omg excitinggg! :D:D

can't wait for the weekend (as usual), friday hurry up and be over please.

also i need to remember to wash the kitchen towels haha.

spent a lot of time on that today. time to study for mcr. haha yes i know it's already 11.30. zzz.


my printer doesn't seem to like my cat2 article. will try to print it in hospital tomorrow. finally finished studying (well, reading through) cranial nerve exam, but i think i still don't know anything. i am dreading my neuro rotation. have no idea when to have my next driving lesson so i have been procrastinating.

okay i really need to sleep.

wanjie made egg tarts for us and they were yum. :)


i want toasted marshmallows.

this morning when i got up i was so relieved that it was wednesday.

i was still dead tired the whole day though. fell asleep in the anatomy lecture. the first lecturer didn't come (his car broke down) so we went upstairs for a while. we were there during ward rounds haha and G asked us if we were skipping class.

we finished early so we had a longer lunch break. :) but everything was weird today.

occhealth is torture, i hate it. pathology was long. no chicken chips again rawrrrrrrr i wonder how long more i can hold out for. anyway the weather is crazy, i froze multiple times today.

and now i have to wash a million dishes. my fault, i've been avoiding the kitchen.


His mercies are new every morning.

it's been an extremely long day, 8.30am-7pm and then touching heaven until 9.30pm. it doesn't actually feel like much happened today, although in actual fact.. well. i don't know.

someone died today. just yesterday N was putting an iv bung into 56 and 57 was saying "but i don't want to live, why can't you just let me die.." and this morning there was a met call, and then code blue, and then just like that, she was dead. she was 90. been thinking about it the whole day already so i will stop here.

i translated for the chinese lady with sciatica. :) didn't know how to say MRI but she helped me out. glad that she's feeling better. :)

shadowed N and did nothing much else. he was nice and bought me hot chocolate. surgical bedside tute with M at 4.30pm, opthalmoscopy and iv cannulation. i hate the opthalmoscope. and i am amazingly bad at doing ivs. :\ haha. should practise more on gm.

wedges for dinner. and it was very cold and windy. still is. we thought th was at the church office so we were quite late. but it was still good. :)

yuwan thinks i am very scary.

well well. it's very difficult to respond the right way.

i am tired, and it's only tuesday.

occhealth readings.


zomg

new intern. quite poor thing because the reg went off to sleep (she has to work tonight) and the 5th year wasn't around. and there is no resident. his first day in mmc also haha. so i hung around to help him a bit.

in the ED, our reg suddenly runs off (to find the consultant, but we didn't know that then) and the intern looks at me and asks "are we supposed to run after her or what?" haha he is quite funny, but i guess it's because his previous rotations were psych and two surgical ones. he said his previous rotation didn't involve pagers haha. how peaceful.

yummy lunch from dinner last night. :D

"call you later" became "see you later" haha. i fell asleep in the train actually. thankfully i woke up at the right time. :)

oyaku don for dinner again. :) thank you for always cooking for me and then washing up after. and for always walking me out even though it means walking home in the cold (and sometimes, rain), and i usually get back before you do.

am also very thankful for my beloved metcard. hahaha i am really trying very hard to be careful with it!

okay. PATHOLOGY whee.


strangers waiting, up and down the boulevard
their shadows searching in the night
streetlight people, living just to find emotion
hiding, somewhere in the night

sunday. :) went to church in the morning. we were divided by gender for pre-service prayer haha. was in the kitchen, chung wei was late and we were all at a loss as to what to do. haha. and chen chen only just came back so ian took over for her. :) so we had two new kitchen leaders today.

not enough food, not enough plates, not enough rice. aunty daisy had to go out to get more food. and it was more stressful than usual haha. but we managed to pull it off. :) dhany sent us to clayton to get cake ingredients. then we spent forever waiting for the stupid 703. i'm glad the morning 703s in the opposite direction aren't always that unpredictable.

came back and baked a "chocolate mousse cake" while yuwan made her card and ian slept like a pig. haha. okay fine he was busy filming last night. hmm. we missed a few buses. but managed to leave at 6.33pm and get there before wanjie and christina! haha. lit the candles and tried to hide. i guess it probably wasn't that much of a surprise, but. :)

dinner at star east, clay pot rice. :) i have food for tomorrow's lunch again haha. updates on our lives.. really revolves around school huh. hospital, i mean. BOB. haha. zhi lin is never going to live that one down.

my fellow gen med purple team person isn't going in tomorrow morning, sigh. okay i think i need to be more self-motivated. it's only the second week of the rotation.

i want to eat rambutans haha. and mangosteens. sigh, singapore.


hmm on hindsight the cake did taste like the flourless chocolate cake we had at ACTS a while back (3 hour lunch break day, crazy person). i probably didn't like that one much either haha. sorry!

time to do all the domestic stuff (eg. folding clothes and changing the bedclothes) before i sleep. hurhur.


the man in the mirror.

tired. but i've finished the CAT2. :) yeay. well. sort of. don't intend to touch it anymore either, except for printing the article because the stupid printer was refusing to cooperate.

some photos from today before i completely crash. :)




chasing the clouds away-

sunny day. windy, too. good day. :)

was supposed to do my assignment today. haha. but i was looking through rachel/ jeremiah's photos at the melbourne museum and so at about 10am i found myself on the way to the city. ;p mekong for lunch, my favourite comfort food. :) loveee.

i really loved it. :D the whale skeleton! :O and the dinosaurs. and all the other stuff. human anatomy haha and x-rays and CTs and MRIs. hahaha. there were pictures of microscopic views of muscle, by -guess who- j kerr!! hahaha. anatomedia was also featured. haha.

didn't manage to go to the australian exhibitions. got krispy kreme coffee/ chocolate and doughnuts! :D okay the coffee/ chocolate was lousy. but the doughnuts, :D. haha. train to huntingdale, then 900 to bus loop (and church office etc but that was not me). just missed the 703 i think, so i ended up walking home though my shoes were killing my feet. hur hur. met chris (chee wei). :)

was home for about ten minutes before joab picked us up for dinner with christina and jocelyn at hoa tran. haha vietnamese food overload. but it was nice. after that we went to cold rock for ice cream. :) yum.

i wish more weekends could just be spent doing random things like this. i think i'm really going to have a self-declared mid-sem break haha.

millions of photos that have yet to be uploaded.

ASSIGNMENT. sigh, and laundry. haha.

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weekend! finally.

UTNSUOERS
omg. haha how on earth did shaun work it out! haha. but it was fun doing all the herald sun target words (and just for me, sudoku ;p).

it's freezing why is it freezing. the weather's been crazy. so windy. michael said it was 100km/hr.

home cooked oyaku don for lunch. :) except for the wrong type of chicken (and too much rice), it was nice. :)





it was really nice that sebas caught me before i went to sleep, so we could talk for a while, haven't done that in forever. law school seems crazy, the way he describes it. but i guess it's kind of like mavis' life, as observed when she was staying with us. oh well. jiayou people. :)

and. he got an iphone! :O my 7370 is dying on me i think. i keep getting smses hours late because i can never get reception in the hospital, and my smses are often not sent as well. sigh. but the iphone is still out of my reach. for now. maybe i should start using the phone army passed to me though.

anyway, it was also really nice meeting nike in the locker room and talking about stuff. :) now angela is in mmc too. but i haven't seen jelline around recently, she must have gone to another hospital.


i just couldn't resist.. haha. fine i won't waste too much time.

+ lovely weather :) :) :)
+ wore a skirt so i could make some vitamin D (i believe i have a deficiency)
+ lectures, emqs, clinical anatomy
- no hot chocolate :(
+ lovely weather still haha
- occupational health is boring (my tutor is boring)
+ looking forward to the excursion though :D (week9/10)
+ good pathology lecturer (one actually quit on us)
+ it was still bright when we walked back :D
+ cooked dinner for ian and david :)
+ found my metcard :O
+ still lovely weather hahaha
- i think we haven't organised tomorrow's mcr tute
+/- can still hardly believe it sometimes (no i'm not talking about the metcard)


to make everyone happy -
on hiatus (from everything) until further notice.


filtered.

lost my metcard again. my monthly metcard, i mean. $73.40 worth of paper and metallic strip, gone. after retracing my steps i concluded that it should be in the house. but i still can't find it. maybe i'll find it eventually. either way it will definitely teach me to return it to my purse once i validate it. so anyway, i am extremely grateful to D, who gave me a lift back so i didn't have to validate my 10x2hrly twice today. heart pain.

what else. M, D, and i spent forever trying to find a gastro patient. but everyone was either having lunch, or sleeping, or demented. or something. i don't mean that in a disrespectful way either. just that it makes things more difficult. during ward rounds M tried to cannulate this old person. who was sort of only half conscious. G is very nice, really. and how nice it must be to have only 6 weeks left of uni. :O okay, no. working is much worse. and the other G was also very nice. revision on gallstones/ pancreatitis.

also haven't mentioned the demise of my mouse. will not go into the details because it was too gruesome. yuwan and i were screaming our heads off. ugh. long story short - dandenong is dead, and now we can differentiate horlicks (yuwan's) from cornflakes (mine).

i don't suppose it is really good to have lunch at like 4+ every day hmm. am glad tomorrow is wednesday, in a way. although i do kind of like gen med.

have been pretty successful in my new "save money" plan i think. haha. self-control. no more online shopping, and i don't even go out anyway so i can't physically shop. i suppose it's just stupid things like losing metcards. and food, a lot of food. also, credit card bills from last month. i don't even want to open the envelope haha.

hmm metro placements.


i hate going over the same thing over and over again. especially if i already know, or if it won't make a difference. zzz. in this case it's both.

surprisingly, after paying all my debts i still have money. :O now i can stop wishing it was already september haha.

am following the gen med purple team with matt. they are all very nice. and there are so few patients allocated to each gen med team. so slack lor. haha.

we didn't have much to do so after feeling a patient's tumour (19x13.5x16cm big !!) and reading a few patients' files we left. had lunch first.

oh and during ward rounds the patient was quite hilarious. she told us about her theory of jet lag. and when she was asked "do you have any pain?" she said "well that depends on what you mean by pain.." we decided that it would probably take a whole day (and a whole lot of patience) to get a history out of her.

driving lesson. hmmm. i think driving is really scary. like every tiny action (or lack of action) could cause a major accident. today while waiting for the bus i saw a car hit a cyclist. well. she started off like 50cm away from him so it couldn't have been that bad, but still. it's a car right.

soup for dinner. :) it smells so nice haha but i'm full from my second half of lunch. should figure out how to study again.

it's kind of nice, in a way, how when i don't open the twitter site, i am completely cut off from it. :) not like facebook, where i still get email notifications. haha.

metro placement selection begins today. would have completely forgotten about it if not for being reminded this morning. but the rural ones aren't out yet, so.. haha. i will indicate my preferences anyway. maybe on wednesday, when i find out where the rest of the world wants to go for what.

the hazard perception cd thing arrived today haha, in unbreakable plastic. i'm quite sure picky can't play it. stupid things which are so mac-unfriendly.

and, thanks to aunty keith for the chicken rice! :D the other part of tonight's dinner haha. :)

okay lah i will do pathology.


it's good to get up early to have more time in the mornings. :) so it's nice that stuff starts at 9am this week. :)

yesterday yuwan and i pulled tree branches off the road so cars (specifically michael's car) could drive through. so the storm was pretty bad after all.. still can't be compared to last year's though. not that i'm really looking forward to another one of those.

and uncle peng (?) told the story of Joni Eareckson, who dived into the sea and became a quadriplegic. it was only more than halfway through the story that i realised i'd read a book about her when i was a kid. should read it again..

going to hospital now.

thank You, and thank you.





i need to know Your strength in me's gonna win this fight.

so i slept 4.5 hours last night. went to church early for ohp. both times i've done ohp in church, it has been very exciting. the first time there was no projector, and the second time (today) the projector wasn't working. but both times everything worked out in the end. :)

when God says no.. and cds, daniel and revelation. to be honest i am still quite lost.

didn't go home after church. just completely crashed for about 2.5 hours. forced myself to get up after that so i wouldn't be a complete zombie at the movie. got to sing the nice song again. :) guitar love.

walked to wellington for Gremlins 2. :) thought it might be weird since i only got an invite by association. but it wasn't too bad. a lot of pizza and wicked wings haha. didn't finish my share. felt extremely unhealthy after. and i didn't remember the movie being that stupid and zzz. haha. but then again the last time i watched it was forever ago, and i probably didn't get half of it at that age.

christian sent us home. :) showered etc, and did a medical survey for june. hmm. last night jonathan consulted me about carpal tunnel syndrome, and this afternoon li chun consulted me about abdo pain/ heart attacks. haha. no i am not a doctor..

my sister keeps finding and scanning old photos.. and i keep stealing them off her twitpic. ;p we were flowergirls at our aunty's wedding in kl. :)


so. many things happening at once. my siblings are having their prelims. everything is quite chaotic and.. overwhelming, i should say. i don't know what to do. did i mention, by the way, that i knew it once i saw it?


michael picked us up for church set up. :) there were very few people.. so we stayed till 8.40. jean marc was going around taking photos to encourage other people to come for set up. ian song sent us to panorama. :) stayed until 11.30, then walked home with yuwan, christina, and chyi wei.

the wind was so strong. i wonder how much energy you have to expend, walking against wind like that. but the good thing was that it wasn't really cold. :) thankfully there hasn't been anything as bad as last year's storm though. no trees have been downed. so far.

finishing dinner now. while the church lunch is cooking. while the oven is cooking the church lunch, i mean. i love the oven.

and my sister found this ancient polaroid while looking through old photo albums. i really wonder who took that photo, because i don't know anyone with a polaroid camera.. i mean. anyone who owned one then. and why were we wearing outside clothes in school? haha. and why was there that vintage car. and helium balloons too. so cool. ;p

sigh it feels like most of the weekend is gone already. have to get up at 6am tomorrow!


you turn my everyday, into the evermore

it was warm today. :) but i am still stuck inside. haha. sad. to make matters worse, it's still cold inside even when it's warm outside haha. but now it's just dark and windy. and cold.

driving lesson #.. i can't remember. :x 9 or 10? i think. haha. he wants a double lesson the next time.bnowadays i keep feeling so inconvenienced because of my inability to drive. zzz.

finished making the card. then had lunch at about 3. was too full from yuwan's tom yum bee hoon breakfast haha. and yuwan rearranged her workspace.

headache. :( i've hardly done anything today, sigh. probably should have gone for a walk. to find my cat! haha.

dandenong has spots all along her tail. :\ they look like ulcers. what do you do with a sick mouse? ahh. :\

i've given up on getting any work done already.. sigh. going to have dinner, go for church set up, and then to huey wen's house. :) cookies for everyone there also. :)

apparently the full year postings will be out soon. haha. if you're allocated a full year placement, you won't be able to apply for a metro placement. so.. i am waiting. haha.

was looking at chris and abie's wedding montage and it had this song. :) i don't actually know abie. hmm. but i always thought chris was cool haha. he's the bass guitarist/ drummer in chs. i think soon chin yi will get married too. haha. suddenly so many newlyweds. but then we're (?we're) going to chc. hmmm.


all you do makes me feel alive
like i'm flying through
starry skies, multiplied over and
over again, a million times
you you you yeah yeah yeah
this is turning into the best day that i've had


glass bottles.

went to hospital for suturing in the morning. without a tutor.. so it was basically us, the dvd, and yuko (the 5th year japanese meddie). haha. we kept replaying the subcuticular suture clip. aberdeen knot..? err. and the fake skin is really lousy.

walked to clayton to get lunch, then went home to change and get other stuff. then took the bus to morton. the cherry blossoms, so pretty! :) had lunch. then hung around until derrick came to pick ian up. i was quite tired from only getting 4.5 hours of sleep last night haha.

stripey! chocolate chip cookies for the people at rye. i forgot to put less sugar. so i think they are very sweet. :x heh. dilemma about sunday.. weird how i get myself into these situations. without even knowing it, really. haha.

do we get a life group retreat too..

i need to get that picture scanned. haha. compare and contrast.

my room is in a mess again, sigh. at least it's the weekend. :)

and yes, the weather has been so good. :) spring is coming! haha. i know i have said this too many times already. but i am so happy that it's getting warmer. :)


indescribable, uncontainable
You placed the stars in the sky
and You know them by name
You are amazing God :)

today we watched Indescribable. my second time, although i should really say it was like my first because i fell asleep watching it the first time. :x i didn't want to tell anybody in case it made them not want to watch it! haha. but i must have been really tired during the retreat because today i didn't want to fall asleep at all.

X-structure at the middle of the whirlpool galaxy. :) we live on a mote of dust suspended in a sunbeam.. we are tiny.

It suddenly struck me that that tiny pea, pretty and blue, was the Earth. I put up my thumb and shut one eye, and my thumb blotted out the planet Earth. I didn't feel like a giant. I felt very, very small.
- Neil Armstrong

He holds the universe in the span of His hand. i think it's only after watching something like this that things are put in perspective. tiny, tiny.

i answered a question today. :O miracle.

went to zhi lin's house to surprise her after life group. :) haha. it was so cool! haha. :D okay i doubt ahem someone has my blog link but i won't say anything just in case! haha. we have a reputation for.. heh. i hope they have a good time. :)

weekend!!


so the parents are coming to my rescue by sending me more money. yay. but i do feel guilty. for having no money left. though it isn't entirely my fault. heh. will abstain from shopping.. although i really feel like shopping now. :\ haha. like i have the time to anyway.

it was a normal day. lectures, lunch, ebcp, and path. ebcp was exceptionally boring. systematic reviews. and it was a replacement tutor, and she went through everything in the notes and made us do the case. and path was, as usual, like a bullet train. i wonder why i never fall asleep during path. no i will not be a pathologist.

talked to perryn after class haha. he's afraid of having arrows shot at his back. ;p he gave me a motivational speech. haha. long winded as he is.. it was nice of him. :)

and today i realised something that i am finding difficult to put into words. perception. maturity. age.

it's a bit scary using my old phone, i have no clue what my expenditure is like. :x

a fire engine came. don't know if it was our building.. heh. i am living your dream. didn't evacuate. just stood by the window looking at the people outside. haha. then the fire engine left. i think. well there are no more flashing lights, anyway.

i don't know most of the songs. :x haha another stressful morning.

okay i am braindead. will continue tomorrow.


"wah lao"
- lame
- what the
- like that also can

no struggle will come your way apart from His purpose, presence, and permission.

because He lives, i can face tomorrow
because He lives, all fear is gone
because i know, i know He holds the future
and life is worth the living, just because He lives

i am going to have no more money soon! like, really. soon. so. okay we'll see what happens.


no he can't read my pokerface

so yesterday during dinner we were talking about people giving up on other people. i guess it's really in all the subtleties. and hmm i don't agree with that point either.

my sister might be getting a mini digital lomo. :O did i already say this? haha. anyway i hope she does, so i can borrow it when i go back. ;p it's digital, after all.

i only realised the one month when we were watching a bit of Music & Lyrics. :) while waiting for Monsters vs. Aliens haha. i love Monsters vs. Aliens. :) actually, no. i love bob. ;p

daniel went to watch Up! i think my sister went to watch it too. haha. i wanttt. and i want to watch The Ugly Truth too. haha. okay no i am trying to save money.

cooked fried rice for dinner. :) had some leftover stew too. i like sweet potato. :) and cranberry juice. and now i have a monthly metcard! :O haha. okay i will be $73 poorer. but i got home for free because of the discarded not-yet-expired metcard. :) yay. and we both got home before it started to pour too. :) and with this new metcard it means i can take bus everywhere! haha. no more walking to hospital.

oh and i had the homemade bread for breakfast. :) toasted (or rather, fried) with butter. and strawberries. and apple passionfruit juice. :) so good.

i find it so difficult to paraphrase stuff in articles because it seems like they're almost always written in the best possible way. but this is how i've always done my assignments i think. do a lot at the start, and then slowly work through the rest. will hopefully finish this one soon.

AND today i saw the smallest thumbdrive i have ever seen in my life. :O it's tiny! so cute. haha. please don't lose it.

sigh. BIG PIMPLE. paper bag mask.

i hope my brother is okay.


flour (pronounced flower)

so last night while i was doing my assignment calculations, yuwan conveniently plopped down on my bed asking for a black marker, and then fell asleep. after being advised to push her off the bed, i decided to give up and just sleep in her bed. haha. i really don't like waking people up.

that's probably one of the reasons why we had to cab to school from ren's house for the symbolic move. and why we lazed around at home until noon most days the fairfield people were in melbourne. ;p diana (and her annoying handphone alarm) woke us up every morning when we were in sydney though. :p haha.

church, cds, home. felt more tired than usual, not sure why. there was this interesting conversation haha with big reactions. and bad guesses. ha.

ian baked bread for me. :) with my name on the top! haha. will upload a photo when i have the time.. or feel like it. and he also made me breakfast! salty and peppery bread with fig jam. :)

he came over after church and we went over to the halls with yuwan to deliver stuff. muffins, kfc stuff, and something else, i'm not quite sure what. listened to zepeng's new desperation cd. then we walked to pinewood. and got lots of groceries. but when we were about halfway through the walk home, chau wang and li ping stopped and gave us a lift home! :) so nice of them. :) well, chau wang really. haha.

everyone says Wicked was so good. chau wang asked us to fly to sydney to watch it. haha. riight.

cooked dinner and rachel came over too. :) then after dinner she went home. and we wanted to watch monsters vs. aliens but picky refused to play it so we'll watch it another time.

watched the national day parade since it is (obviously) national day. although it really doesn't feel like it. anyway, in my opinion this year's ndp was exceptionally.. okay will they kill me if i badmouth it? or sue me or something. ha. okay whatever the case, i didn't enjoy it. didn't like the song either. oh well. am more detached now anyway i guess. only living in singapore during the holidays is really different from living in singapore full time.

but.. okay there is the flipside of the coin, obviously. but that is another story for another day because i am tired! though it's not even 12 yet. and i am complaining though i don't have to walk home in the cold. sigh. car, please. and license, of course.

TWITTER ugh.

sleep! :)


what a mystery-

so we went to New Royal Garden for lunch. :) yum cha for jocelyn's and zepeng's birthdays. belated, of course. the poor girls sitting at the guys' table had to pay so much. :x

after that we took polaroids! haha. everyone was so fascinated. i love my polaroid. ;p okay they are still overexposed.. and look better in real life. hmm. the guys' photo is better (blame the girls' photographer!).. and there are still those yellow spots.

daddy called me this afternoon, he hadn't slept the whole night because of "interesting" people at the A&E, and he was "escaping" from his clinic for a while. he said if he didn't he might go crazy. maybe they think i am going crazy..

anyway. i am unable to tweet, sigh. my sister bought the skirt! haha. hopefully it's in my size. ;p although i wouldn't know what to wear it with. hmm.

am in no mood to drive. oh well. back to evidence based clinical practice.





but i couldn't make you see it.

am being reminded of certain things. :) which are vital at this point in time. which is really good.

hmm okay i am very tired. went to glen waverley after life group as an impromptu thing with michael, yuwan, christina, zhi lin, zepeng and chun hoong. :) had coffee/ chocolate and shared lame jokes. it was nice. :)

remina, jia jee, melissa and chau wang are going to watch Wicked tomorrow. :O i want! sigh.

so nice looking through mang yik's maryborough photos. :) miss that place. and the night sky there. :) and the rural placement in general. watching tv from 6-11pm and finishing one tub of ice cream every single night. ;p haha. and scaring kai wen and zhi xuan! haha. :p

am tired. will try to get up early to do stuff.


kenangan terindah.


resolution;
1. a firm decision to do or not do something
2. the action of solving a problem, dispute, or contentious matter

so. the weather has still been pretty good. :) i say this not because i like the wind and rain, but because it has miraculously stopped raining every time i needed to walk outside today. :) like it was raining after i'd finished my mcr, but it had stopped by the time i handed the form in and got my stuff from the locker. then it started raining once i was done grocery shopping, but stopped before i got off at the bus stop. :) Somebody is telling me He loves me.. the last thing would be if it stays dry when i have to get to atlantic st. haha.

also i managed to get my mcr assessed by a random (okay not so random) consultant walking through the ward on her way to see another patient. :) and i found m's notebook i think. hopefully it is. it would be horrible to lose your notebook.

DREAM.


praise You in this storm.

so i received a salt and pepper mill. :) well. actually just a pepper mill, but it has been converted.. anyway. i quite like it. :) mostly because it is much easier to use than the ones i was using before. ;p

also talked to the ah ma, which was good. :) it makes me miss last year. sigh.

i am sort of crossing people off my list. a good thing, in this case.

and i received something in the mail. other than the stupid things telling me to pay money to whoever. body corporate? those are so irritating. and so much money.

chun hoong came over to bake his "divine raspberry swirl cake," which he claims is better than mine haha. no i have never baked raspberry swirl cake. but i don't believe in cake mixes anyway.

started on my cat2. :) all the easy stuff. am halfway through reading the article. need motivation.

yuwan was playing the indo song on her computer. ya abba Bapa, ini aku anakmu.. :) i love that song. learnt it in yia (was it called yia? before it became rgen), after some people came back from a mission trip. for some reason i still remember it. :)

opi called me. this is the first time she's called me since the beginning of the year.. i have always been the one calling back. she says that because my cousin ian has been sick, she has moved back to "number 8" (my house) for a week. meaning she has to climb stairs.. not good for her. but he's getting better so she should be able to go back to bt regency soon. she also says that if you bully me everyone at home will give you one punch each. ;p haha.

stay till june! or may. :D would be lovely. :) but really, kangaroo meat? eww. :x

the wind is crazy. wouldn't be surprised to see trees on the road tomorrow.


i lost my textbook on the bus. :( this is the second time i have ever done this - the first was my amath textbook on 74. SIGH. :( i hope i get it back. how ironic that the metcard was in it all the while, sigh. and it still has 5x left on it. ahh.

the weather has been lovely. :) it's almost spring! :D anddd i've finally gotten the picture, loveee. :D haha. and apparently i am stalking my brother on fb. hurhur.

other than that. having david around for the last bit was quite hilarious. also helped to edit the story. ;p which i don't really like as much as others. hmm. okay nothing much else. i will try to explain.. when i get to see you.


finished path and the ebcp quiz. do i sound normal now? ha. interestingly i actually looked stuff up for ebcp and managed to get most of the calculations correct. :) except for like likelihood ratio and something else which i have no idea about. also wrote this ridiculously long entry because yuwan asked me to. well. she makes a good point, it was a good idea. is a good idea. and since i have been refusing to blog properly, it's good to have it down somewhere to keep. anyway, tumblr has just made my lj redundant, so i won't be using that anymore. my head is now unbearably heavy, i am going to bed.


quarter life crisis.
++ abdo pain.
international phone calls.
4 x 2 x 500 = 4000.
that amounts to.. 2%. ugh.
nevermind i shall let it go.
like i have a choice, really.
so i am back at square one.
nothing further.


am so tired. :(


MONDAY BLUES.

woke up late. well. 40 minutes late. in time to catch the bus to be just about on time, but i managed to miss that one as well. so i was half an hour late. ha.

cardiology ward rounds. feels weird to be on ward rounds again. haha. so unfamiliar with ccu stuff. the reg seems nice though. and the residents and 5th year as well. :) well he's singaporean.

had lunch. then we had our group meeting from about 1 until 4. -.- had to do a lot of editing because the slides were crazy. we'll never be able to finish it in 1.5 hours.

walked home through uni. resisted the temptation to buy chicken chips. save money $2.50 at a time, ha. it was really nice weather for walking though. :)

my brain is tired. will take a break before going through the slides again. am contemplating eating the rest of my lunch now.. but there is dinner later. hmm. maybe not.

we are having to constantly evaluate the person we are becoming with the decisions that we make. why does that sound so tiring..


we're having a thunderstorm! so it's just as well, i'm going to sleep now. :) i am exhausted. just went through most of the powerpoint and printed off my section. 5 pages of 6 slides each, i could be giving a lecture on my own. zzz.

i am in love with max the beagle. but berwick is so far away! sigh. :(

will probably spend a lot of tomorrow sleeping in the library, ha. i hope it won't still be thunderstorming when i get up because i fully intend to walk. unless i get up late. :\ uh.

i have been quite sleep-deprived lately. and i can't believe that has continued for TWO days. omg. (or zomg haha) OKAY OFF TO SLEEP GOODNIGHT.


when the stars burn out here.

my eyes are now dried out from the walk home against the wind. thankfully i had yuwan and rachel with me. yuwan entertained us along the way. :) the wind is crazy. the clouds were racing along and we convinced ourselves that the stars were moving too.

went to church at 9, was on reception. stood outside for the first time in forever. :) which was nice. talked to people. where would you put the church building if we had an unlimited amount of money? i don't know. winter jackets made of heat pack material.

the jerusalem council, dealing with and seeking to resolve differences. important, yes.

went home and sent the pictures out and cleaned the mouse cage. was still cleaning it when ian arrived. :) the freddo's is still sitting in my freezer, sigh. bummed around and looked at his tassie photos. :) then we all started cooking and valerie came over for dinner. she cooked mushroom omelette. :D which is cool, i can never do that. omelette is such a weird word.

walked to morton with yuwan and ian. saw chris and jas in their car haha. people were making the tau foo fa for the multicultural festival. but we just talked.

so i actually have a lot of other stuff to say, but because of the implications of saying it here.. i will leave it for elsewhere.

in other news, i think i am regressing.. which is bad. time for a conscious effort.


SLEEP.

can't believe it's already august. :O omg. i can start counting down to when i get to go home again. :D i think most of us can relate to what d said on thursday, how it's nice to be home, but you still need your own space, so in some way it's nice to be here too. i think it would be difficult to live at home permanently again. i think that if i make it to 5th year, i will end up doing my elective at home. less exciting, of course. but cool in a way. why am i thinking about this now.

am itching for another picture post. :) this is what happens to me when i have a ton of work to do, have no motivation (whatsoever), and end up doing stupid things like tumblr and facebook. and msn, of course. i feel stupid when medical things come up in conversations and i don't know enough about them. haha. like i will ever know enough.

still tempted to get it. even more so, actually. but that is a normal response. sigh, the repercussions of our decisions. and i want to watch my sister's keeper. but i've pretty much come to the conclusion that i have no time for that. and so i will probably wait until it comes out on dc and then get it from someone. :) thank you, though, for you know what. i hope you feel better when you wake up. :)

okay i know i was supposed to sleep like hours ago. :x goodnight! :)


and when that world slows down, dear
and when those stars burn out, here
oh she'll be here, yes she'll be there

+ hate prostaglandins when they are completely and utterly unnecessary
- didn't get much work done today :(
+ felt warm most of the day
+ somehow managed to do the laundry
+ somebody is very sweeeet :)
- for some unknown reason my kidneys are working overtime :\
+ finished reading bmg
+ one more day before my crazy week begins


my body tends to retaliate when i am too stressed. sigh. :(