Bottles

Dallin's grandpa passed away on the 6th. We had the viewing last night. It was Zoey's first "big" outing. We just took her for a little while then my mom came to take her for the rest of the time so people didn't put their hands all over her. During the family time before the viewing she started to lose her sense of humor. When she's hungry, she is not patient. Dallin stepped out with her and when she didn't calm down I went out. I could tell she was hungry so we went in search of a place where I could nurse her, hoping to tide her over until my mom could take her home and give her a bottle. There was a little bathroom downstairs and I found a dark room. I stepped in and it was a room full of coffins. Empty, luckily, but eerie nonetheless. I realized (being a rookie on my first outing for longer than an hour) that I had not dressed appropriately and had worn a dress which was not easy access to feed. The coffin room was looking like my only option since it was dark and surely, no one was going to come wandering through there. I could hike up my clothes no problem. I couldn't do it. It was too creepy. I told Zoey it just wasn't going to happen there. So I went searching for warm water to just give her a bottle. Cold water everywhere. In the bathroom there was a little chair so I locked myself in there and nursed her for a bit to settle her down.

When I figured I'd commandeered the single stall bathroom long enough, we emerged, but it was not enough to keep Zoey happy. I luckily found my mom in line waiting for the viewing to open (family time was still going on) and handed the baby off so I could search for warm water. Still cold water everywhere so I headed to the streets. I spotted a little cafe across the street and "ran" in my high heels (which were KILLING me at this point) to beg for warm water. The people there took pity on me and filled up my bottle. Whew! Got the bottle made up and we fed Zoey in the line. I was glad my mom was there to help as I didn't want to take Dallin away from the services and I was so frazzled and had no idea what to do. Rookie mistake #2 - I should have just filled a bottle with hot water and put it in the diaper bag since I have an insulated pocket. Duh.

So we learned a lot on our trip out of our house. I also learned to pack extra burp cloths.

Just as a side note about the last time we saw Dallin's grandpa. We headed over there the day we took Zoey's newborn photos. Mike and Mary were over there since it was there night to feed grandpa and we thought it'd be nice to get a 4 generation photo since you never know. Mike was a little disappointed because he was in shorts and not really dressed up but it still worked out ok.

Grandpa Pete was a bit ornery, as he wasn't in his right mind anyway, but the second Zoey showed up, his whole demeanor changed and he was as happy as could be. He held her and snuggled her and just raved about how much he loved babies and how great they are. He said there is nothing like your first one, how special they are. Then he said number 2, 3, 4, 5 it's just not the same (he had 12!) Mike even tried to touch Zoey and he slapped his hands and said you never touch babies' hands.

He couldn't get over that he was the GREAT-grandpa. He kept saying, "I'm the GREAT GRANDPA??" Then he was confused why teenagers where having kids and losing their hair and growing facial hair. Dallin assured him that he was indeed 30 and married and old enough to have a child. We will treasure those memories. It's bittersweet but we're glad he's back with his wife now and in his right mind.

Baby: 2 Months

Zoey turns 2 months old today. The way time is going, I feel like I should start planning her first birthday party already. Two months in the womb didn't go this fast, I swear. Two months at work DEFINITELY don't go this fast. I've loved spending day in and day out with her and getting to know her. Currently, our routine goes a little something like this:

6 a.m. - Wake up and eat
7 a.m. - Go back to sleep cuddling (my FAVORITE time of day)
10 a.m. - Wake up and eat
11 a.m. - Hopefully go back to sleep
1 p.m. - Wake up for the day and get dressed
The afternoon is either spent awake and laying on her back kicking away and talking to the ceiling or napping in approx. 3 hour increments. The other day she was awake from 10:45 a.m. until 1:30 a.m. with just a little nap in between. She must have places to go and people to see!

She usually eats really well around 9 or 10 p.m. then once more around midnight. Try as we might, we are lucky to be in bed by midnight. It's usually 1:30 a.m. before she goes to sleep. She is the most awake between 9 p.m. and 1:30 a.m. I mean, WIDE AWAKE. I'm not sure how to change it but it's going to need to be different when I have to work.

At 2 months Zoey:
wear size 1 diapers
is in 0-3 month clothes
gets her shots on Tuesday so we'll have an official height and weight then
drinks between 2-4 oz. of Enfamil A.R. formula per feeding
takes 1/2 dissolvable Prevacid once a day
has started to coo
follows and focuses with her eyes
smiles a lot
kicks and waves her arms a lot
gets the hiccups about 5-7 times a day. They have started to infuriate her
her hair is lightening but she isn't losing it
her eyes are still blue
had kind of discovered her tongue and likes to stick it out and lick
still loves to always have her hands by her face, especially when sleeping
doesn't care too much for a binkie but will take it every once in a while
is NOT patient when she's hungry (she can wake up from a deep sleep screaming)
her toots surprise her and it makes me laugh
her eyelashes and eyebrows are getting darker
will let me get the boogies out of her eyes and nose but HATES having her hair brushed
likes to watch TV (ugh)
loves to listen to Celine Dion
likes to sit up and watch what's going on around her
also likes to lay on her back to kick and coo
"talks" to her "friends" a bit less than before
likes to hold on to my finger while feeding
loves warm baths
knows mama and dada's voices
fights going to sleep
hates being put in her carseat but always falls asleep once we hit the freeway
usually has 1 blowout a day
is loved beyond belief

Blue Eyes

In the quiet moments in the middle of the night, I get to gaze into Zoey's wide eyes and look with wonder the spirit that Heavenly Father has entrusted me with. Her eyes dart to the corner of my room, to the window, to behind the bed, I'm sure to the angels watching over her and giving her final instructions before the veil is closed. She looks with such intensity, taking in every moment. I feel her spirit has such a strong desire to do what is right and to do it correctly. She has such a thirst to learn and in those blue eyes, is so inquisitive. She patiently waits and listens. She seems wise beyond her years. It is amazing to watch this daughter of God, take in a new world with such peace and contentment, with a perfect knowledge of where she came from and where she is going. It's inspiring really.

While she doesn't have many traits of mine physically (except her ears and mouth), her eyes are still blue. We were all sure they were going to turn brown but as time has passed, they are still a steel blue and they may stay that way. Although she physically doesn't look like me (if I hadn't birthed her, I would truly wonder if she was mine), I feel like she is my kindred spirit. The only spirit who truly knows mine, having lived inside of my body for 9 months. Being a mother is so special. How I love mine so, and how I hope Zoey loves me. I can't believe she is here, in my arms, growing and learning. It's all been worth it.