oh brother..

Yes, I am now safely tucked away in the daily reality called Bandung. And I'm cheating on the jet lag and the preparation for my graduation. I am so sleepy at the right time, but unfortunately the right time is actually has to be spent for preparing the graduation dress, the shoes, the arrangements, and whatnots. And I am sleepy now..

But before I go to bed, I'd love to write out what my thought has brought me to today. I found out that living without expecting that someone will be always by your side (e.g.: a boyfriend, true eternal best friend, any close familial relative, etc.), without someone whom you feel you have social and intimate obligation to, and without adding or degrading value and meaning of what people do to you is a blessed and freer living. And my word, perception is the most delicate thing ever in human relation and it could make our eyes blind, near-sighted or far-sighted.

Bye bye now.. Pictures will come soon. ;)

just before i forgot..

Before I went off to sleep last night, I spent my time wandering about my ideal guy would be. There is always this pattern which I hadn't really grasp it yet and now I know.

First of all, I always like it when a guy could make me laugh - the laugh-till-my-stomach-hurts laugh - and have fun together (or have fun watching me have fun by myself =p). And.. with that charming humor, I need him to be wise in life; wise enough for me to want to hear it and not thinking him as a wise-ass. But I still need him to value my opinion, and that would probably mean both me and him must have similar way of thinking.

Well.. Anyway, I thought it's important for me to remember that but I may not need it now. Why ever not I need it right now? I don't have any candidates yet, and it's tiring to try and find these qualities within my male friends.

i should be grateful then..

Umm.. The weather guy has interrupted the channel twice. We may have a tornado warning and we are on the edge of our seats watching storm tracker and me updating East Lansing Weather Forecast website now and then.

This is my first tornado warning! GAAAHH!!! Please God, make it my last in a pleasant way.

this is just in!

I went googling on Cata's bus tokens and it's said in Wikipedia:

Tokens may be purchased in sets of 10 for US$ 8.50 at various retail outlets around the area.

That would mean that 5 bus tokens are worth US$ 4.25 and we gave him US$ 4.00! Aww.. God bless him. =)

tokens for granted..

We met a guy on the bus stop at Fandors (or is it Fendors? oh whatever..) and we assumed that he also want to get on the bus - just like us. What he actually did, however, is asking us for a dollar because he needs that one dollar to buy a new pair of glasses and in return he'll give us 4 tokens for the bus. But before that, he asked everyone of us which kind of payment we use to pay the bus fare and neither of us said "We use tokens". Sadly, he wheeled away - he was a disabled person yet he can roam everywhere he likes God bless America for that - and waited for other people who would take his tokens.

After a while and me asking sis about what that man actually wanted, Mom suggested to give him 4 dollars for his 4 tokens (because it usually costs a dollar per bus trip - except when you have these bus tickets called transfers). So I called him and asked him if he need 4 dollars for his 4 tokens and he said yes - he even gave one free token! After that, you could see that he was relieved and really grateful and he also said we were a bunch of nice people and etc. Then off he went to a $1 store to buy his new glasses.

Hmm.. Now that was weird.. Why did he thank us as if we are the nicest people on earth? (I know, I'm just exaggerating but this strengthen my point anyway) Mom, then, explained to me that this country is quite extremely capitalist and it really follows the demand-supply theory they teach you in school. So we were actually being weird to him instead of him being weird to us because a normal American would gladly give only a dollar for those 4 unnecessary tokens. Well, I just think that paying 4 dollars for 4 bus tokens in any situation is common sense anyway and I'm glad we gave him the money he needed. =) Plus, he gave us one extra token.. =p

Now *this* is the kind of experience I've been looking for..

fraternities sororities

So far I've bought myself a nice new bag, a lipstick with a sexy color, loads of chocolates to give away, Dark Horse comics, body sprays for my Saturday-day-out beloved girlfriends, Emma on DVD (yay!) and um.. I think that's just about it. I've seen the Michigan State University and its trees that are starting to change colors beautifully. I couldn't complain because that would be inappropriate and I've always loved traveling (since Korea, that is =p). But everytime I'm alone, my mind wanders and I don't feel like making the best out of this trip. Not only that, but it's easy to drift away into post-breakup mood.

Oh, and I just have the strangest dream this morning. I met Akihisa and Naret in my dream and guess what, I also met and actually had a decent and fun conversation with my ex's recent girlfriend. It's totally weird. But I'm glad I had those kind of dreams tho' - for no reason at all. And I'm no where near to fulfill this autumn-fling romantic fantasy. I am sure that there are a lot of attractive and lover-potential guys in East Lansing, thanks to MSU, but unfortunately we don't share the same place to hang around. =( Tomorrow, though, I'm planning to watch MSU parade (I haven't seen a parade in my entire life before! GASP!) so maybe I could afford some window-shopping. ;p Oh may God bless me.

a little something in between

Greetings from Singapore's Changi International Airport!

I am now in the transit lounge waiting for the next flight while having breakfast. It breaks my heart that me and my mother couldn't fast today (yea rite!) because it'll be an exhausting trip and we need all the food and drinks to survive. =p It's 2.25 AM Singapore time right now and we've just checked out from the airport's transit hotel.

Speaking of which, I made a blunder regarding the hotel's check-in time. I've mistakenly assumed that I could check-in 15 minutes after the time I want the room booked (at 8.00 PM) at the latest. But actually..they'd only wait for 60 minutes after my arrival time which was at 4.00 PM. Yyyeeaahh.. So they had to give away my room and gave me one that doesn't have the TV and colder than the room I've booked. But that's okay, no big deal anyway - at least we had somewhere to sleep and take shower.

Because of this mistake, we were worried to check-out late and get another 'penalty' again. Thus, we woke up and checked-out earlier just in case. And my head is itchy and overexcess of oil so because I can't wash my hair so as not to catch a cold. But that's beside the point..

Overall, Changi is verryyy verryyy huuuggeee it's like its own city by itself. I could spend more than one day exploring the airport. I wish I have as much time in my hand right now.. Anyway, my hot chocolate is waiting and I think Mom is trying to get me to drink it before it's cold. Goodbye for now, dear blog. I wish I could transfer some pictures into the free internet computer, but that couldn't be possible.. =(

here comes the next plane..

I'm going to USA tomorrow and my mother's a bit panic because it's her first time traveling toward outside South East Asia region. I myself am a bit careless because I personally think that overworrying diminishes the enjoyment of traveling. This different attitude between me, her, and Dad (which is the same side as Mom) creates a tinge of tension, which is bad for the atmosphere.

That, and because I won't be home for this year Eid are maybe the reasons why I feel like crying. But maybe there is another reason too.. Me and my ex have exchanged the standard greeting - "Minal Aidin Wal Faizin" (that roughly means "Please forgive me, body and soul, for every mistake I've done") and I felt relieved beyond prediction because that what I've been wanting to say since a month ago. Whoa.. Imagine that, a month of meaning to say that you're sorry and while waiting for the appropriate moment, you only have the courage to express the regret only by action.

Anyway.. it seems that this post is going to a rather sentimental mood. I think I have to stop.

Oh, I forgot to write something! I got a vaccine today so that I would be able to handle the cold from the autumn weather. Wish me not getting cold or sick on this holiday. =p