another tag................... 21.9.08

Always getting tagged these days. Huhu. I am mostly lazy to tag people and sometimes lazy to answer the tag. Nevertheless, here it goes, from Id.

State 15 weird things/ habits/ little known facts about yourself :

1. Quiet. especially when first knowing me.

2. At other times, depending on the topic or timing or situation or people, I can talk a lot more than one could expect.

3. Likes learning Japanese, loves Japanese music and wants to migrate there someday :D

4. boleh makan banyak pada suatu certain masa.. tambah nasi! ratah lauk!

5. tak suka kebab.

6. Loves McCHicken, and when i order by the set, it always comes with LARGE size, the small one is never enough even though I am small. OK, what's the deal always talking about food??

7. SLeep a lot, abah & mak slalu ucap good morning bila masa sememangnya dah bukan morning. leads to being nocturnal

8. Nak cari komik panjang doremon ttg nobita & doremon tuka jadi batu.. adeh, penah baca time kecik2, nak carik balik

9. Disorganised, especially my bed. Always doing work & most of everything on the bed

10. Music is a HUGE part of ma life. it could affect my mood. instrumental music & certain classics r great too :D

11. Penah pegi plkn - the era where my life truly began to feel worth it.

12. Likes strategy games. Jom bina empayar!

13. loves english grammar. notices errors quite on the spot :P not good in vocab.

14. pemalas. not hygienic like sister Id.

15. close to being Parkinson-netic. always having tremor and shivering.

I am sure there are more weird things bout me, just that I don't remember everything right now. =P

and malas to tag! Please do, if you want. :)

ah 14.4.08

Ah. Somehow kinda miss kontot. Who? He was a male cat I had back few years at home who loved putting his face in the middle of my legs to hide his face, in order to go to sleep as a way to bermanja, I guess. But he disappeared, don't know what happened to him, he never came back home. :(
And somehow I miss him lately, and the other cats at home. Cit (buncit, lol) is still at home, who I got at the same time with kontot, a female sibling of kontot. Her first-round daughter kerekot (speaking of her tail) and second-round daughter koko are also at home. Speaking of kerekot whom I call kot, always reminds me of kontot whom i called tot back then. Kot has this cracking voice everytime she meows, kinda funny. So at the same time, I miss kot... huhu. And I need not mention that I miss home, of my family there, now that I'm talking about the cats that I have at home.

Ah. Workloads. So many of them. It gets uncountable, sometimes I don’t know where to begin. Once I began, I can get too careful in certain aspects, so much it can consume so much time which is really unnecessary but for me, if I don’t do that, it feels incomplete.

Ah. People. So many attitudes and behaviours that are out of my understanding. It can drive me crazy, it’s so puzzling. Some other parts of it are amusing, though, it gives a whole new perspective to life to meet new people.

Ah. Food. So little of this, though, compared to the so many of the stuff mentioned above. It’s either I get too lazy to find this and get them, or I just don’t have what it takes (money) to get the food. Regardless of the fact that I have received my money from MARA, the habit of getting too little food for my own good sticks the same. It is to save money, and this, we all know, is very important. If not, I would have bought too many of what I don’t really NEED, but too many of what I just WANT.

Ah. Sleep. Too much or too little? Saa na. Sometimes I get too little of it, later on in the next sleeping session, I tend to give myself too much of it to redeem for the previous session. That seems unnecessary, again. Yet sleep is really one of the best things in the world, whew, indescribable.

Ah. Time. No one can really get enough of this. To get more of this sometimes, I tend to sacrifice the aforementioned things – food, sleep, going out or talking with people, maybe. Just to give more time to myself, which I do need. Yeah this is an important necessity, so it’s crucial to separate the time I spend with others (be it things @ people) and the time I spend with myself, in my own world. Indeed I still feel lost sometimes when I get left behind, maybe other people get used to my action of keeping things to myself and so they tend to leave it at that, not asking me anything else further. That feeling of being ignored, left out, alone, unimportant, arises yet again. Yet it happens, but really it’s not anyone’s fault.

Get used to it.

I am beginning to give myself a chance in life to get used to some things now. Time to get back to reality. Maybe, as they say, time to move on with life. Don’t look back. Err, jangan pandang belakang?

And there should be some point where I should start. Like for my workloads, if I want to stop feeling left behind, or maybe, stop feeling dumb enough in doing any of them or stop feeling lost by not being able to understand my subjects here in Monash, I got to start early, focus more in classes and lectures. If there would be extra timing anywhere, use it wisely to finish up my work or study. Study smart as people put it, not study hard. I don’t think I look like the study hard person, I don’t know about that, but I know my ways of studying. It rarely involves much use of the textbooks I own. Not to say that buying them was a waste, there are uses for it. I take back the knowledge contained within the books and put it in the computer. Possibly coz I know studying with the books or any physical notes tend to make me feel sleepy way faster than if I study with my laptop. This worked in AUSMAT before SSABSA, sure I feel confident enough it works for me now. Get any additional information I could get from extra resources like the internet, sure I love doing this since I love the internet – plus that I could do other things in between, like e-mails and games etc. Still I have to set my boundaries on that, I know. Still, not that I will always study with the computer only. Conventional ways are still on the go, since I won’t have the time or convenience to drag my laptop (and hard disk, hmm) around all that often – makes me wish I have a PDA or so, hehe. That’d be a dream; maybe I’d get that in another 10 years when I have more money (of which by that time, maybe PDAs are really old school already). So I still make my own notes and print some of the notes given my lecturers for instant use. Any other additional infos I took on the notes, I probably will transfer them into my laptop later on, seems like that really tells ya how the stuff in my laptop is my primary way to study. I enjoy doing notes with computer softwares, even if they can be tedious at times. Hey, one of those I enjoy, OneNote of Office 2007, and also EverNote that I used to use a lot last year; those EverNotes notes are still kept in my old AUSMAT folders, in case if I were to use them again. For all that effort, some say I am hardworking, “bagusnya”, “rajinnya”, which seem weird enough to me, haha, considering the fact that I just do all that since it’s my best studying method. I am really too lazy when it comes to opening up the books. Besides, to keep myself busy is a good way to forget other things bugging my mind, especially if it’s keeping me busy with the computer. If it is considered hardworking, then, cool :D

And also, it’s a big world out there with many kinds of people. Liven it up; people, food and opportunities may come to you when you least expect it. Hehe

made in japan 4.2.08

i had a crazy thought in my mind - i think i was made in japan.
so what the heck does that mean?

my whole family went to japan and stayed there back then before the 90s even before i ever existed, back in the days when my dad still had his long hair and my mom had her big round specs. my 3 elder sisters all followed along, lived there too. kak zahi, my 3rd sis was too young to remember anything. my 1st and 2nd sis was able to go to school there, my eldest sister kak ilya could still remember some japanese till now. i remember the last time she came back home here in seremban, she asked me for some specific japanese mp3s, and even wrote them in hiragana - a simple enough written kokoro. cute though, looking back at the old pictures of them living in japan, wearing those skirts and those simple bags. my 2nd sis, kak aqiey doesn't seem to remember much of any japanese like kak ilya does. not that she's even interested to re-learn it anyway. kak zahi remembers nothing at all but she has her own pictures, amusing ones. they all were playing with snow! yah - made me jealous a lil bit - i've never been outside of peninsular malaysia, haha. not even to any islands around here, the last one was penang, and that was years ago, and before that was langkawi, and even that was ages ago.

the made in japan thing? well i think my interest in learning japanese that began years ago that had not disappeared till today, in fact probably been building up, is because my parents had me in a japanese atmosphere. i mean i wasn't born there, but before i was born, the process before that... maybe... you know, maybe, anyway. coz they all came back home to malaysia after staying in japan, tho i'm not sure how long afterward. i'm not sure bout it, i'm not about to ask them anyway :_:

dad also used to take a peek at the door at night and say oyasuminasai before going to bed at night and i'd reply the same thing shyly, i think, when i was a kid, each of us at our own bedroom door. he's the one who is more of the japanese expert in this house, compared to everyone else. mom doesn't seem to know much, and as mom puts it, she said my hiragana is quite nice. uhm, of course, i guess, since i copied that straight from where i learned it from, which is the computer. my 2nd sis is saying i'm rajin coz of this hobby. dey, or else won't have anything else to do. my bro-in-law is asking me questions too. haha, as if i'm an expert.

still, to be able to write something, a new language that doesn't involve abc, fun with strokes (kanji) - it gets interesting, if i can start reading japanese or even write it.

made in japan, me? really? i dont think so, its just a bakarashii theory, i can laugh at it. i've been called a budak jepun during form 5, being appointed as the girl who writes 1 new japanese word a day on the whiteboard of my class, and it becomes quite an attention from all, students and teachers, with weird (or long) phrases such as "happy birthday" - otanjobi omedetto gozaimasu", of which the gozaimasu can probably be omitted to wish someone happy birthday. when this attracted attention from an anime fan of the class, he told his buddies from other classes - somehow word spread, about me, being a japanese language fan, also an anime fan. even other class students were asking me japanese then, which was somehow a weird thing. it came to a point that i was too caught up with SPM that i stopped updating my japanese column on the whiteboard. up till now, i already have quite a few books with me. a really huge japanese dictionary, like the oxford kind (whew!) japanese to malay and a few other bilingual dictionaries of malay-japanese. i lost my phrase book and my vocab book :(
well, kinda dunno where i put them though ever since my sister's wedding! disorganization disaster X[

baka na~

classics 27.1.08

japanese composer hirano yoshihisa is an amazing person. since listening to his work from ouran high school host club's soundtracks, i haven't got sick of rewinding the songs since the past few days for the several hundred times. they are like the new modern classical music, the songs used in the anime for all those dances in the rich school for waltz and all the grand events by the host club. listening to the tracks, full, all over again, i am feeling the rhythm within my soul. this is what you call music. music isn't just alternative rock for me, as that's mainly my favourite, and i usually don't go for music that's too slow. but i'm not limited to just that, it depends on the songs themselves. this one, it isn't slow, it's happy, it gives me the mood to do things, make me forget my problems. without any voices singing, that's what makes the songs sound peaceful for me... it's the musical instruments themselves being played that were singing, for me anyway. one song alone consists of many combinations of musical instruments that all needed to be played at the right time, needed the right tune etc, not that i'm good at explaining that, what i'm saying is that, it should be hard to make just one song to sound good, alone. let alone, there are like about 20 songs for ouran. my personal favourites:

Sinfonietta C-dur
Theme for the cute one for orchestra
Ouran Cocerto for oboe, 2 horns, violin and string
Sakura Kiss for string
Tranquillezza for string
Music for the Music Salon No.3 for trumpet and orchestra


classical music has its harmony with its symphony, i could consider it as a favourite music category except i dunno anything much about it. it could be boring for some, it's amazing for me. music = it's endless.

what;s been up? 16.12.07

reading - paper, chicken soup, etc
writing
checking email
doing friendster & facebook
online with ym
lazying around
scolded - stil bad at cooking, =P
surfing net
looking around
listening to music
find new music - japanese (l'arc en ciel is awesome), indo (hujan is cool, apparently) etc
downloading
gaming
blog
checking out berlitz japanese audio
go thru berlitz essential
practise it out
tv
sleep
pondering
wondering
plan to buy new phone - old one = damaged & stil is
helping for sis aqiey's wedding
waiting for exam results
hoping, praying
creeping myself out

everybody, wish you all good luck - best of luck! - and hope we all get the best and fly together!