And yet another Thing

For some reason, I'm leading with my left these days. I noticed it awhile ago while digging a drainage ditch for Annie, my left leg was sore after. Caught myself doing it today with the axe. Scary shit ain't it? I won't even be able to be a capable axe murderer at this rate.
Life is terrifically boring right now. After some yardwork, I hung out till I found dirt on my ear and had to shower and get back out of the house. I did get some Little Shit time so that helped. He still loves me.
I should get to sleep because my schedule is really screwed. Later kids.

Out of Character

Being unemployed is making me do strange things. I went to a movie this afternoon. I generally don't do that, but things being what they are, Annie and I went to see The Help. I liked it, and hated it, and the movie experience at 3 pm is way better than most times I've been, so there is that.
Movie is worth a watch, I just told Lucy I wouldn't be seeing it with her because she's gonna get ballistic about some of it, and that's ok, but she's on her own with it.
After that our boys were working the bar since we went to the nice theater, (I even put on jeans for this outing) so we got to see them for a bit. It's been awhile.

I'm home and don't know what to do with myself since I'm not sleeping lately after way too much of it. Feast or famine.

Finally got off my ass and started applying for jobs I can actually do and **crickets**. That's not good. Will keep sending shit out and see what happens because it's getting to be crunch time. My nest is thinning and I don't like it.
Think I'll go hit baseballs or something. Night kids.

So......

Let's see, it's been a few. Mr. Cool bailed on trivia last week so Annie, Mr. Asshole and I played. We finished with a huge score of -1. Now we know for sure who the brains in this operation are lol. We also threw together a suprise birthday party for Mrs. Asshole and The Princess since they both have one coming up this week. Ok, surprise for Mrs. Asshole, we had to tell The Princess so he would actually show up since his Saturdays are always so busy ya know. Lucy and I showed up at the restaurant for a drink, made up an excuse to leave and decorated the house before everyone showed up. It was cool. Dad even came, as did one of her friends she doesn't see much anymore, a good time was had by all.
I think Lucy beat me up in my sleep last night tho, my ribs are bruised and it hurts to breathe, not a good thing since breathing is kinda essential. Got online and applied for a few jobs today so fingers crossed I'll hear from somebody soon. Just watched the VMA's to see Adele and the show definitely lived up to my expectations since I already thought it would suck. Off to check in with Lucy and put my ass in bed since I've got things I have to do tomorrow. Night kids.

Something more Thoughtful, or something

A friend sent me a text, she had her friend looking for my application. I didn't tell her I applied for a much lesser position than she was expecting. She thinks I'm all that. I'm not. I could be a tech, but not what she's thinking I am.
I'm happy breaking stumps these days. The outside work has been good for me, mentally and physically. I spent so many years worried about work, it's kind of nice not to anymore.
I have to find a job soon, I know that, but at the moment, I like being able to do whatever. Let's just hope I don't cut a leg off anytime soon.

In unrelated events, I just found out my holidays are off and I'm trying to decide if I can make Westfest. I thought it was end of month. Shit. I may just say fuck it any day now and go anyway. I still have too much shit in my head.

So a snake climbs a seawall....

Yeah, that happened at Dad's today while Annie and I were hanging out. She can't seem to let me go have fun by myself, so there we were. She was fishing from the pier and I was going to change rods or something when she saw snake heading across the water. It climbed up on the seawall and I got a large stick to smack it off before it got in the yard. 5th swing I finally connect. Stupid snake. Anyway, after I beat it a few times (I wouldn't let Annie pick it up and put it on the ground because really? My aim against a copperhead? Hell no.) it swam slowly back to the other side and disappeared. Good riddance.
Other than that, there were hummingbird fights and several fish caught that we threw back for later. It's just always nice to be at Dad's house anyway. He's gone gambling and let me hang out so yay.
Now I need to make my ass go to bed because even tho I don't have to work tomorrow, I have work to do.
Later kids.

That's a Bummer

Been waiting for my new phone case since I hate not having a clip. Doesn't fit. Fine. Ordered different one that SHOULD fit and will figure out how to send this one back tomorrow. Bastards.
Went to Ms. Sweet's and started a couple of things, too hot, gave up. Spent some time with Little Shit tho, so way worth it. Thought about going to Dad's, ended up at Ms. Fan's house in the pool because it was hotter than hell today. Still thinking about going to Dad's tho. May pack up in the middle of the night, well morning now, and take off because he's out of town and I can have the place to myself. I'm liking that idea.
Going to set alarm and all that, later kids.

So yesterday was this...

Lucy and I went over to Ms. Fan's house to swim and hang out, had fun. Then off to Dad's after many beers for me. He had dinner on and later he and I sat outside and talked about everything under the sun, but mostly his women and feelings. It was decent. Lucy and I actually went to bed before he did because I was tired, stressed out and kinda trashed lol. Got up this morning to breakfast, did a few things around his place for him and headed home.
Oh yeah, went to put my glasses in their case and he had stuck some cash in there to help pay for my new computer, so he almost bought it for me. Love me some Dad. That helped a lot with the stress, and Ms. Sweet paid us Friday for some of the work at her house so I have my cash stash back again.
Got home and Annie was asking me about jobs and resume' and all that, so I got online and started applying, it's depressing. Anyway, sitting at The Dive so I can drink, job hunt and smoke all at the same time in air conditioned comfort, with a free beer since one of the regulars can't drink right now he bought us all one, even better for me.
Guess I'll do something productive and head home soon since it looks like my Sunday date isn't showing up to kick my ass at darts this week. Oh well.

That Trivia Thing?

Mr. Cool and I won last week, finished dead last this week. Oh well. Spent our winnings from last week so we both had small tabs, and neither of us really cares, so it's good.
Humility and all.


Shit happens, and all that. Off to bed since I didn't do shit today and still have stumps to take care of in Gnome's yard tomorrow. She's just happy to have a kitchen light so at least I did something.

Later kids.

Yeah, that's better

At The Assholes's house. She takes me outside to check on food, says I seem angry. Assured her I was not, we ate, brought drunk dumbass home and fumbled for things to do.
Got guitar tuned about the time Lucy called to tell me about her shitty day. Put guitar away again before I hurt it.
I'm not angry for once, I'm just seriously depressed.
I usually am, or do get angry. I just don't have the energy now.
Handsome finished breaking my heart. He was the last link to my old life. But he was more than that too. I miss him, he was my best friend.
Fuck, gonna go do something else and try to sleep. I have stumps to break tomorrow.

Losing My Mind

I've got to start doing something. I spent today being depressed as hell and sleeping most of the afternoon before hitting The Dive just to get out of the house. It's depressing just being here. I got ready to leave The Dive and couldn't find my keys, guess why? Yep, still in the ignition of my wide open Jeep. That's scary. At least he wasn't stolen and neither were the keys. I need to find something to eat and get my head outta my ass. Not sure either will happen tonight. Off to waste some time.
Later.

Home Alone 2

I headed to Ms. Sweet's house to install a light, realized I forgot the light. Said fuck it and went to Ms. Fan's pool where I swept, cleaned, and floated around all afternoon. It was cool. Nice of her to let me do that. My boat has a hole though. I need to carry some duct tape over there.
I'm useless. Think I might be useless again tomorrow. I'm catching up on all those vacations I didn't take because work was so important. Yeah, nevermind.
Anyway, need to put my ass in bed since I stayed up all night last night. Later kids.

Whatever Night it Is

This is my second night alone in this house, and neither has been pretty. I miss the dog terribly.
Even if it's just Annie, I know someone is here, and it's bearable. She's gone again. Probably part of the reason I haven't been anywhere I haven't had to be lately. I'm too considerate.
I'm also an idiot. Going to sleep, I think there's some tequla around here somewhere.


Yeah, that didn't happen. I'm still here. Someone on Facehell said something about my "humility". Do I really? Nevermind, you wouldn't know. I'm a narcissistic bitch, why else would I have a blog? Albeit an anonymous (or as anonymous as I can make it) blog. He knows me in real life, where I'm quiet and contained most of the time.

I guess I should give up this place, but it's where I really talk about what's going on, most of the time. I've deleted stuff when things got ugly, but for the most part I'm more honest here than I am anywhere else.
I write what I want here, you know my fears, hopes, and most everything else. I use this place as a bookmark sometimes for when something happened that I can't remember the date.
I started this to be funny, but now it's more a place for me to vent. I guess I should go back to pen and paper, or just write everything up in a doc.

Decisions, decisions. And they are never made well at 4 am after a shitpot full of beer. I am now, almost, going to bed.

Ah, New Computer Makes a Difference

Eddie was having issues, processor is overheating to the point of not being able to do anything. Gave up and bought Edith today. Lucy is now jealous.
I like, but I really hated to spend the money. Such is life. I'm still landscaping, but about to have to find a real job.
Jumping Jack Flash is on, haven't seen that in forever. Decent movie.
Gonna go play some more mindless facebook games and take my ass to bed. My sense of humor is nil these days.
Later kids.

Gotta Quit Smoking

I went out back to smoke for the first time in a week. It wasn't pretty. I've been out there to take care of the girls and mow and stuff, but this was the first time I just went out to smoke. I missed my buddy. The house is too quiet and the yard is too empty. I've been staying gone a lot, working on a friend's yard, and another's pool, but still have to come home and it still sucks.
I know it'll get better, I'm just babystepping. Also about to finish up the yard work I've been doing and start looking for a real job because I can't keep doing this.
I think I'll check in with Lucy and put my ass in bed since I'm heading to Armpit tomorrow. Later kids.

School Starts Next Week

What better time to take Spawn to The House of Mouse? Yeah, I almost had a nervous breakdown 2 seconds after walking in the door. It was an ocean of ankle biters swarming around me while I looked for Mom and Spawn.
Managed to get through the cardboard pizza and chasing him around for a couple of hours so it was good.
He did me proud, he asked Lucy to hold his drink right before he hit her with his brand new inflatable hammer that she blew up for him. She says he's just like me, poor kid.

Blogger Sucks, and so do I

I told Lucy tonight that there was nothing holding me here anymore. I meant job, dog, that stuff. She didn't see it that way. She's right, but my priorities have always sucked.

My excuse was she still had responsibilities, I'm on my own now. My own is wide open spaces.

I'm too much of a coward to go there, but I want to. And I should. We'll see if I will.

The Handsome Devil

came to us as a pup, smaller than my cats, with the biggest feet I've ever seen on a dog. He grew into them. He was one of the good guys. On weekends I'd throw him in the shower with me, then wrap him in a towel and we'd nap on the couch.
Today I missed tripping over him, or his wadded up rugs, and going out to smoke in the back was out of the question. Annie's mother laughed that I put a cigarette in with him, but that was our thing, if I was going to smoke, he was going out and coming back in with me.

He was smart, protective, stubborn, and always out to please.
Yesterday morning he got up because we wanted him to, got to the back door and just laid down, done. He told us it was time. Annie rode in the back with him until we got to the vet's office, vet was out to lunch, so she drove to the lake while I sat with him. That was the only time he smiled. We hung out for a while. Lucy talked to him so we all got time to say goodbye. Back at the vet, deed done, we went to Annie's parents. They had called a neighbor with a bulldozer. That helped a whole bunch, so it didn't take as long as usual.

Today, he's better off and the rest of us are total wrecks. R.I.P. Handsome. Losing you is breaking my heart, but I know you made my heart bigger because you had a great one. I love you.

So That's Done

The Handsome Devil gave up this morning. He said it's time. He always was a drama queen. He picked the time rather than waiting for us to do it.

We took him to TN, and ended eveything there. Buried him next to Stray, another good dog that mentored him.

Lucy went with us.

I miss him much already.

I had words, but they left.

Goodnight sweet Prince. I love you.