Dusting the Place Off

I've been slacking, but I've been busy. Castleville won't take care of itself ya know.

I'm having a whole lot of "Idunno" these days. Lucy is staying here since her home is stressing her out. My home, Annie and her is stressing me out.

Job hunt is still a hunt. A friend sent me something today where she can at least get me interviewed so fingers crossed. I've become complacent and that's not a good thing.

I'm gaining weight because I drink all night, sleep all day, and start all over again. Not a good thing.

I know Grannie. I'm working on it.

My self esteem is gone these days. I know I'm worth a shit, but nobody else does and it sucks. I also seem to have lost my train of thought since Lucy asked me a question....


Think I'll go play a game. Later.

Nothing Really New, But...

I've been in a seriously foul mood lately. I can't help it. I'm unemployed, my head hurts and, I'm worthless.
I love Spawn, but after last night and today, I wanted to kill him too because he never shut up. Thankfully he did sleep last night. I wouldn't have made it if he'd stayed up with me. Knocking on the door and trying to scare me at 7 a.m. is acceptable since he crashed around 9 and I stayed up till 1. I got a break.

Dinner with the family was actually pretty awesome. Food was good even if I did help Mom do the major parts, and I ate too much of it.

Came home and hit The Dive for a much needed chill out and I'm better now.
Off to do shit tomorrow since looking for a job tonight isn't going too well either.
Sigh.

Dog Sitting again

Ms Sweet is off on another adventure. I'm enjoying her dog and her comfy bed while she's gone. He's not happy that his schedule is messed up, but I think we'll be able to live together for a bit.
He's snoozing right now after hacking my facebook to bitch about me. We'll have a chat in the morning.
I'm off to bed since I haven't gotten much sleep the last few days either.
Later kids.

Hard to Keep Track

Days run together lately. Got a couple of things to do this week, and spending some time with Friend's dog while she's travelling again. Maybe I'll get back to blogging while I'm there.

I Did a Good Thing

Went to visitation for the friend's mom, and got her way drunk after.
She needed it.

I have a billion post it's in front of me with job info and passwords to get there...
I don't care tonight. I'm happy I made my friend happy, at least for a minute. I love her, and she deserves way better than she's gotten.

We had some diso at The Dive, drinks and many toasts to her Mom. Hubby took her home in her cups, and I may own a new Harley next week when we kidnap her.

Oh yeah, I'm in the kidnapping business lately, she's on my list for next week.

This is Different

Put new clothes on the Jeep today, it's awesome, it's like not having windows. I think I wore my fingerprints off getting the damned thing on, but still, worth it.

Went to The Dive and My Brother showed up. There was a partial power outage so we threw some darts in the dark. He kicked my ass. He then found a couple of other people and at least he was taking the really drunk one home, he kept pressing his knee against mine even tho he knows better. I'm not in the mood. I wouldn't be interested in drunk guy even if I was straight.

Got home and had a note to call a former co-worker about lunch Saturday with several other former co-workers. Most of them are the same family, and one I've seen off and on for lunch over the last couple of years, but still. Intriguing. I'll plan to be there.

Funeral for another friend's mother tomorrow so I've got to drag my ass out of bed and put on real clothes for a change. It's been awhile. Got a pill to help me get through that, but probably shouldn't take it since My Brother told me who got my job contract and I need to pass a test if they consider me. Dammit.

Guess I'll go play for a bit and put my ass in bed. Night.

Had a Plan, Kinda

No, not really. I kinda thought about doing this, and that, and probably would have if I'd been alone. Instead I took off to do something someone else(s) wanted and it has just pissed me off so I think I'll go cocoon and be done with it for the night.

I had sentences that made sense about what's going on, but they're in my head, and that's a scary place right now. I wish I could write what I think when I'm stringing sentences together.

I was happy to write stories about the Kidnapped Kingsnake, until... I got self-concious about bothering people with it, but too, why bother?

Yep, making no sense again. Time to sleep, or check and see how many cats are eating these days and then sleeping. I'm not too amusing lately.