And It works like that

I've been busy, kinda. There's lots of sleeping going on, and a possibility of a real job, but same ole sitting on hold for that.
Last night I grilled. I've done that off and on, but not really. Last night I was missing Handsome seriously. He hung out next to me, waiting to see if I'd drop something, and I always did. The girls don't seem to get that, so I was a mess by the time the food was done.
Annie and Lucy said everything was good, I still haven't eaten any of it.

I also made more sense in my head last night, but couldn't write without crying so I didn't. Mrs. Asshole called me just after lunch today so we've been drinking for hours.
I'm deciding which me I like better.

Love you

I'm having a rash of people losing people right now and my PMSing ass is having a hard time with it. I called Mom just to thank her for still being here, and that turned into a CONVERSATION, but it was still ok.
I'm ok, but, if you're still reading this, besides you JS, you know I love you, thank you. I love you all too.
I'll be calling Dad tomorrow to thank him for his house where I and friends raided his freezer and had dinner after his Dad died. Friend and I both needed the calm place, and I'm thinking I need to go back to it because coming home has made me an emotional mess. Geeze.

Back to the sentiment of the moment, I am a loving person, I don't like bullshit, and get tired of mine on a regular basis, pretty much why I haven't said much lately. If you need something, let me know, I can at least be a shoulder to cry on. Take care kids.

So it's been that long?

Mom is currently cancer free so YAY!
Or at least PET scan says she is, have to have a couple of other things done, but lymphoma is gone for now.
It's a really good time to be unemployed because Annie's aunts are acting up and she needs to be gone a lot. It's a really bad time to be unemployed because it's messing with my head something awful. I don't need much to mess with that anyway.

I think I should go to bed, or work on the book I'm writing because hey, most people get a hit when they've hit bottom right? LOL

New and Improved

Mom is going to get her test results all by herself tomorrow. I guess she's a big girl now. She told me she didn't need me to go with, it wouldn't change the results, and she's right so there we go.

I've been depressed as hell lately, but still maintaining because somebody has to right?
Weepy has been replaced by sleepy so I'll go to bed soon.

It was 80's at The Dive tonight just because, and I need to look up Sass Jordan again because I loved her, but it may have been only me that did.

Lucy has kicked me to the curb. I can't remember if it's because I'm an inconsiderate asshole or an insensitive bitch, or both, but that is what it is.

Annie may have a job so good for her. I'm looking at leaving everything again because I can.
Think I'll go sleep because I can. Night kids.